Nothing Really Matters

[Trotski]

I have tried to make things work. They haven't. I'm tired. I'm sad. I'm lonely. I'm done.

[yperoxos]

Resist! Give it a bit more time. Always, give it a bit more time.

[bemine2016]

Trust on God n believe in yourself...

[Babyboy915]

Living it now searching for help as we speak just try your best to smile

[kentgal]

Dont give up you are not alone. It will get easier. Your in a dark place now but it wont always be like this. Im having counselling and am starting to feel lighter and more hopeful.

[Trotski]

I apologize for the maudlin post guys, it turns out that I was succumbing to a nasty physical illness; within an hour of this I had a 103°F fever that would necessitate my hospitalization two days later. One thing I'm learning is that my most severe depressions are germinated around purely physiological ailments. On the flipside, I will say that I wish this site were more immediately interactive or ask if anyone knows of a community forum that would be and comes close to what I say I am looking for in my first two posts.

[stuartc]

Trust me, things will get better! (Cliche) A lot better, just take the medication you have been given, even ask to see a councillor, but remember they are there for your safety and your health, thats the one thing you can abuse with this type of service, is just asking for a general chat, whether its to talk about your day or just for a coffee.

I know it seems far off in the distance, ive been there, hey, we all have. Some still are! But that is okay, because people are around you and will support you. The advances of medication and knowledge over the past 30 years, hey over the past 5 years are incredibly advanced and still are to this very day.

Trust me when i say that just have a little faith within and just keep telling yourself, its okay. lets do this, we can do this. Take each day as it comes. Everyone has those off days, even me. Its natural, its what makes us human!

[Trotski in reply to stuartc]

Stuart, thanks for your response. It turns out that when I wrote the post that you responded to I was becoming very seriously physically ill; I had bronchitis, an ear infection, and then came down with Flu. That goes a long way in explaining my mental state at the time. What I would like help with, is what I put forth in my first two posts "Go on Living, I Guess" and "Why there's Been no I in Team". Although there is a heaping dose of humor in both posts, I am very serious concerning the precarious predicament that surviving so long with HIV has found me in. I'm fast running out of time and something in your pos thinted that you could help. Thanks, again.

[stuartc in reply to Trotski]

I am always here to help people. How long have you been diagnosed for? Medicine is so far advanced now that its so easy to treat.

[Trotski in reply to stuartc]

I have detailed what I need in the two posts that I asked you to read. That said, I will do my best to condense it: my direct experience with HIV Disease from 1982 on (my neighbor was the first AIDS death in Cincinnati) gave every expectation that I would be dead by now. Well, I'm not. I'm in surprisingly good health. Despite the maudlin nature of the post that you responded to, I am even in a good mental state too. My problem is that at the age of 52 (an age I never thought I would live to) I find my self without most, if any, of the accouterments necessary for living a fulfilling and meaningful life. I am looking for or to start a group concerned with the struggle of having to build a new life after a lifetime of perpetually preparing for death. Any resources or contacts that are not religious based (I don't mind religious facilitation) would be immensely appreciated.

[Positive80]

I agree with what the fellow guys are saying, keep positive and optimistic. Take the medications on time. try to do things that you like. there is always light at the end of the tunnel.

I think we all have the ups and downs and some hiccups from time to time.

Talking to other defo helps and do not think you are alone

Come here and chat with us and ask questions and you will see everyone will engage with you.

I look forward to hearing good news about you

X

[Trotski in reply to Positive80]

I would love to chat but it seems that no one follows the thread, therefore there is a lack of conversation and an overabundance of advice.

[Positive80]

You know some guys in the US / UK / Every-where really - time difference but everyone is willing to share experience / advice …etc

I hope your day is going well

Regards,

Lee