Thanks

[Flosmum04]

Thanks for all your support everyone, I was having a low day yesterday and a moment of weekness.

I shouldnt have posted, Ive learnt its best to keep things to myself and thats definitley what i should have done with this thought i think.

No one else can really help, Ive been to the GP,a few times recently,I have been waiting months for a neurophyscology referal, Ive applied to try and get financial support but find it all a bit overwhelming. I understand that the only way forward is to sort things out on my own.

Ive given up my job now, so ive got time and space to heal and recover. Ill not need to post on here anymore hopefully as i wont feel so worried about coping by myself. Im fine, everything is fine. Life goes on x

[Hidden]

Hi Flos, what you have explained as weakness is the strongest and bravest thing you have ever written.

You were being honest. Welcome to the real world Flos.

You've had a moment of realization, an insight into the nature of yourself, please embrace it.

You have explained in your previous posts about how you have hidden away and fought the world but all you seem to have done is construct some kind of prison for yourself.

The denial and hiding from what has happened to you has finally broken out.

And now you say you are going to crawl back in and shut the door again.

That's weakness, denial and hiding away.

The bravest thing to do is to share your real self because many folk here have been in your position and have emerged by having a good rant, shedding their prisons and facing up to reality of themselves and the world around them.

Hiding away has got you nowhere so far, you've seen your life crumble around you and you've quit your job.

That could be a blessing in disguise because it will give you the time to open up, express yourself and get on the road to recovery.

If you open up you'll find out who your true friends are, the ones that don't care will evaporate. We all know that one.

While you are getting yourself sorted you may come across many challenges with the 'system,' (NHS and DWP) and you might learn that it's not what you thought it was, it's not what you have been told and led to believe it is.

You might end up feeling very let down and abandoned, many here know that one.

There is a wealth of knowhow on this site for fighting the system and getting over hurdles, there are many ways to do it. People will give their versions of how to do it and it's up to you to find your way based on those.

Now you have opened up (weakness as you call it) be brave and break free from the prison you are thinking of crawling back into. Reading your posts it's clear it's some kind of behavior trait, has it always been like that or only since your injury.

The good thing about these traits are they can be changed.

Thanks for exposing the real you, I hope to see you again.

Have a good rant and let yourself out. You'll be empowered.

[Flosmum04 in reply to Hidden]

That’s the most honest thing anyone has said to me since it happened. Thank you so much x

[Hidden in reply to Flosmum04]

No probs, get settled in, accept the new free you for now, then the hard work starts.

The other thing I noticed in your posts is that you have a strong will and a resilience and that will come in very handy on that road to recovery.

It's doable, believe me.

[Leaf100]

Hi FlosMumWe are here. We don't judge.

Self isolation is a risk for all of us- it is not a good thing in the long run.

Be here - it's important.

You don't need to hide.

Leaf

[Teazymaid]

hi flos .. I have read pinkvisions reply and it is everything I wanted to say and more .. 😊 live just read back at a post from 2 years ago and I did reply to you then .. I have no memory of any of it but I wrote is still the same today .. Infact I would say I’m worse now than I was then as I was totally in denial and thought the old me would win .. it’s been a beyond tough nearly a year now where I’ve deteriorated physically from not getting any rehab ( as that doesn’t exist) and mentally from old me wanting to do what the new me can’t do with my wonky brain .. this has been the only constant place I have had support, understanding, care ,compassion , empathy, communication …etc ( the list just goes on) please don’t shut yourself away , let the new you out , find the new you , learn to except the new you .. im struggling but hearing you feel the same helps me look at this picture from a different perspective and that actually helps .. so thank you for sharing how you feel .. ps I get very jealous of people especially on Facebook who are doing nice things like a bike ride as I would fall off with my balance 🤪 why do others not feel like me , why did someone alter the ladders I was about to step on , my misery list is endless and I to hate it and fight it 🥴 please keep us company in this very strange world of head injuries .😊. Sue x

[TreesMTBI]

Yes, to echo what others have said- you are more than entitled to express your frustrations and feelings on here and don’t feel bad about it. And it can hopefully help in some way to feel better or at least differently about stuff, when others respond.

You’re a strong survivor and you are seen by all us other survivors 💕

[Nemo24]

Don't stop posting in here if you need answers to questions or having a rough day. You are in a community who understands. They get it and you won't need to go into long explanations. I found asking for help really difficult as had been so independent before my injury. Best friends have been rocks and explained that it's just paying back for some of my help and support to them in best.

Take care.

[Painting-girl]

Keep writing Flosmum, together we're stronger, but we all experience those low days at some point - probably more than we would like. I've had a busy few days, and am utterly drained today - and am hoping that tomorrow isn't too bad.