3 weeks after starting back to work.....

So it's 3 weeks that's gone past of working my phased return to work of one morning a week. This week is my first day of longer hours, actually a 7:30-2:30. I am looking forward ro it if honest but at times I sometimes still like a failure. I know it will pass but I hate the way other people make me feel as if I can't cope, when actually it's them who can't get used to the fact I'm back..... oh well..... I just need to keep smiling I guess. Still feel a failure in a few ways but I can't always say what annoys me or why I feel a failure...

[TreesMTBI]

Good luck with the longer shifts, Sshhh. Hope it goes well.

Just a thought but perhaps (NHS) counselling/therapy might be something to consider now or in the future, as you’ve been through a trauma and sustaining an ‘invisible’ injury can bring up all sorts - I just picked up on your comments of feeling like a failure and this could start to have a detrimental effect on you and your recovery. I only say this as I pooh-poohed the idea of therapy as I was so intent on getting other types of treatment that are a long way off on a waiting list, believing I could deal with ‘it’ all myself. The GP put me onto them as an easy option and I was mad at the time but I am so thankful now for my NHS therapist, she has helped me so much especially how to be more compassionate towards myself- we can be so tough on ourselves in this society. In the UK you can self-refer to NHS talking therapies which are sometimes called IAPT improving access to psychological therapies.

Hope today goes well!

(If anyone is interested, the particular system that I have fallen upon quite naturally with my therapist is called Internal Family Systems Model by Richard Schwartz. Highly recommend.)

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Thank you for your reply. I have spoken to my work manager and HR are involved as are occupational health. ( I work for NHS) so they are supporting me lots and have talked to the woman involved and she has promised to wtop talking the way she was with me. I will find out this week. Thank you though. I appreciate your reply lots.

[Nemo24]

You're doing great to even be back at work. It's an adjustment but always do what feels right for you. Good luck.

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Thank you, longerbday this week so we see how long I fall asleep when I get home this week haha..