I am totally losing track of time, days even weeks and years! My partner of 21 years died last year. He was my carer and although my symptoms have not changed. I have realised that my life is racing ahead and I am stuck at home 90% off the time. My family and friends are a few people who do the best to help me now. Yet I feel totally cut off from the world! They all have families, jobs and there own life’s to lead, which I fully understand. Everything that I had,before I was mugged and attacked in 2009 and left permanently disabled. I am by no means depressed and perfectly capable of speaking up for myself.
Therefore I do not understand how I feel as though I am on the outside of life and looking in! If that makes sense! My working life is over and it’s taken many years to come to terms with that…. Okay, so I still can’t accept that! I can psychoanalysis myself all day long, although the next I won’t remember it so that’s a pointless task!
I suppose what I am asking is has anyone else experienced this? If so what did they do to rectify it?
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Love the psycho analyse/ don't remember comment - really made me chuckle - so true!
You sound like you're in a very similar position to me, and probably loads of us on here.
I got some fab advice from people recently actually - take a look at the answers on my posts - the posts are not interesting but the answers have some really good ideas!
And I think the outside looking in is the depersonalisation thing (which definitely needs a therapist rather than me!) but mine is doing alot of grounding (meditation) work with me for disassociation so maybe try that if you've not already.
Ironically I used to help people with disabilities and children within a residential home. All of these techniques were used to aid others to cope with their anxieties, depression and behavioural conditions. That’s why I can Psychoanalysis myself. My TBI is not the worst traumatic experience or traumatic experiences that I have faced in my life! This is why this is so frustrating for me because I can not beat it!
I have always been a survivor no matter how much life throws at me! Yes, I survived when my family were told that I may not twice. Psychologically I am strong, it’s the rest of me that’s being a pain in the butt!
All of the doctors have said that I have to accept that I am not going to get any better and just have to try and my days will be about controlling pain. I can not stop pushing myself every day to do more and more no matter how many injuries I get! 🙄🙈
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