Hello everyone. My story with UK living continues and i try to close my eyes more often in order not to see the things i dont like here. It is hard to focus on positives and i feel i am becoming depressed. I have never witnessed so much consumerism in my life and i am pretty sure the area i live in is not for me at all. I went today to register in job centre as i remembered that 12 yrs ago when i lived in wales and then scotland this was the way to find a job. It was not possible but the person offered me to signed up for benefits. I would have to wait in a really long queue! I am afraid that with this attitude towards work this country will really struggle if the article 50 is triggered. And i dont want to start conversations on EU or immigration, i want to point i am afraid of the economy and growth because i see really low value and poor quality of service around me. The other day i went to college to ask about digital marketing and the lady i have met was not able to understand that i have MA and therefore it means i have freaking a level. She was going on and on about the need of having a level and it started to annoy me. She asked me do i remember my marks?! How this is more relevant than 6yrs of university? I feel inadequate here.
My company finelly decided not to transfer me from polish branch to uk one because the department im in is being reorganized. I have to look fir a new job. I have been invited to few interviews but i am afraid of communiting and long hours. I can work perfectly from home where i can rest when needed and then catch up with work even late at night or weekend but it seems there is no such flexibility in jobs i have been applying for.
From a good news we adopted a cat. And this was the best thing! We have an adorable lovely cat that nobody else wanted and we are really happy with the advise and help we got from rspca. Our cat (cykor which in polish means yellow-belly) calms me down when i get frustrated or hopeless.
I have also found a great neurologist (polish one in fact) in walton neurology centre and i will be starting rehab and therapy. So far thats it. I dont know how i feel about all that. Maybe i am just change resistant(...) i want to thank you all for nice messages, calls and texts. Im still here just dont always know what to write....