Hi all. I've been scared to post for so long but have finally decided I need some advice.
My boyfriend had a serious RTA in April (this year) and was in an induced coma for a week. He had a subdural haematoma, several skull fractures and a broken collar bone. He was in neuro rehab for 3 months after the coma.
We live an hour and a half from the hospital and I was running my own business so I cut my hours back drastically to allow myself more time to visit him every day for several hours.
It's going to sound terrible but after I was over the initial stress of his accident I actually loved the time we spent in neuro rehab. He is self employed too so I got other photographers to cover his work for the 3 months he was in hospital. That meant we got to spend some real quality time together when I was visiting and then I came home and actually missed him and looked forward to seeing him again the next day.
Now he's home after making an almost miraculous recovery but the problem I'm having is that he's jumped straight back into work. Because I cut my hours back at work I had to give up my business premises in town and am now working from home but making little to no money.
So now he is the breadwinner and is working 15+ hour days. I feel like I've gone from being his rock to being a parasite living off of his money and I'm not useful any longer. He had his license taken away for medical reasons and is reapplying but basically all I'm useful for right now is driving him to jobs. I don't grudge it at all but I do struggle with the lack of money and, if I'm really honest, with being at home with him all day. We've both always been really independent people and now it's driving me nuts being in his face the whole time.
I feel terrible for complaining to any friends and family as they all tell me how amazing I was during the hospital times and how we're so lucky to have each other etc. I know I'm lucky, I just can't help feeling so utterly desperate and like a horrible person for feeling this way. I felt so close to him during that time and now I feel like we're drifting apart
I don't know what I'm hoping for, just someone to listen and offer any advice I guess.. Thanks guys x