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[Julesgettingthere]

Hi, anyone around awake ?

Doubt Im going to sleep tonight, just wondered if someone else was in the same boat.

Jules

[cat3]

Sorry Jules didn't see your post or I would have replied.

Did you sleep eventually ? x

[Julesgettingthere in reply to cat3]

Hi Cat

I missed your reply in return sorry.

Haven't wanted to look at my computer for a couple of days.

My sleeping problems are at their worst at the moment, I have just been talking to MX Man Nick about it.

I went to my trauma appointment again today. I was trying to think of 'my' safe place to relax (like he asked) but my head was nearly totally blocked with sensations of the accident. I couldn't get passed it. The previous appointment i have been to i am always feeling sick with worry prior, but afterwards realize its done me good. This one didn't. I just hope he realizes it wasn't me not trying, my thoughts just turned to concrete. I wanted to run or break something. I am sitting at home now and the husband has the rock radio on full blast - i can hear it winding me up even through these super duper ear plugs. Worry is, he is going out later so i will be alone for a few hours. I am trying to calm my thoughts but the music is winding me.

When he goes i will try and relax again. Dont be surprised if you start seeing pleas on line later t a ridiculous hour from me - sorry in advance.

Hows those new plants anyway Cat - I saw some the other day abd thought of you.

Regards

Jules

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[cat3 in reply to Julesgettingthere]

Sorry to hear you're still struggling with the therapy Jules ; I suppose it's what's keeping you from sleeping. But you have to stick with it ................. go through the pain and the gain will be enormous !

Bad things happened to me as a child which I kept tucked at the back of my brain 'til I was 40. I cried like a banshee when I had therapy, but boy did it set me free from all kinds of hang-ups and issues.

And tonight, when you're alone, try to use the time to relax to your favourite music or a tv programme, and if you feel the need for a 'project' DON'T ! Come here and talk to us instead................................ promise ?? I'll look in every hour or so. xx

[MXman]

Had one of those nights last night so no how you feel. Poxy bi can get me sometimes with the sleep pattern. Thought creeps in and thats it ping. Hope you sleep better tonight. Nick Xx

[Julesgettingthere in reply to MXman]

Hi Nick

'Thats it ping' is exactly it and its sickening when you realize 'here we go again'.

The more i listen to other tbi people, the more comfort i feel, i didnt realise, really didnt know that everybody on this site is having similar problems. Its as normal as normal gets for someone who has banged her head

I havent slept (that i know of) now for 3 days - exhausted.

Regards

jules

[MXman in reply to Julesgettingthere]

Completely understand Jules when it gets you its horrible. I have found reading before bed really helps. XX N

[Julesgettingthere in reply to MXman]

Hi Nik

I am going to try the audio thing at night, maybe with books.

Its reassuring to know what happens to me in my head happens to others too. Thank you Nik

Jules

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