Sometimes, I feel like a broken version of myself.
I'm Broken: Sometimes, I feel like a broken version... - Headway
I'm Broken
Hey Negeen, you just have to accept the person U are now. It's taken me 20years to accept what I am now & not try to live up to expectations as to how I was. I've changed as a person & it's only within the last 6 months, through self councilling that I just realised, I'm not the person that I was, I'm not going to be the person I had planned to be, accept your limitations & enjoy life.
Do U still love to read & do U manage t take it all in, cos that I can't do & again it's only after 20 years that I've found a way that I can enjoy reading again, cos previously after reading a couple of pages, my mind would wander & I wouldn't take in what I'd read. I now read 2 t 4 pages at a time, depending on what my concentration's like but then I stop. I've just read or coming to the end of James Cordens autobiography & I have really enjoyed it ;o)
My consultant said it's all about managing my condition now. And that's what it is, not easy to accept that life isn't going to be how you originally thought it was going to be but as StaceM8 says it's all about working out how to do the things you enjoy.
I used to read and read but like StaceM8 my concentration is not what it was but I can manage a chapter at a time so thata how it has to be, plus I forget the plots but I persevere and it's not so bad xxxxxx Janet
Hi. I felt just like you. Now I think more positive. I am still vain. I still expect to much from myself. So I am not that different now haha.
I am sure if you think about it there is a lot of 'old you' still there! Take care.
We probably all feel that way sometimes....but how we choose to respond to the shitty deal life handed us is up to us.
Its not easy, but its worth working to become the best version of ourselves that we can be....and we can't do that job well if we are always looking back at what was...and who we were and what we did ....and lamenting the losses.
It sucks...we all know that. Its hard...we know that too...but if we keep looking and moving forward rather than always looking back, then even with painstaking baby steps we will get there in the end.
It's very difficult coming to terms with the new person we became. My life now is so different, and I still have many days when I really battle with the new me. But I have discovered that people still like me, and I am able to give. All my friends are Headway folk, and we have so much understanding. Good luck!