hello, this is kind of personal but I could really use some advice/ tips from others with fnd that have been in similar situations if you wouldn’t mind sharing.
I very recently lost someone very important to me. Their funeral is in two days and as you can imagine it’s been a rough and hectic week. Before any of this happen I was actually already having a flare up in my symptoms particularly my speech. I’m writing a eulogy, I won’t be the one reading it outloud but with that and all the other organising with my family my speech has understandably got worse. With everything that’s going on and my fnd symptoms ontop of it I’m very nervous and have extreme anxiety about the day. There will be a lot of extended family there who I haven’t seen for a long time as well as a big crowd of other people too. Crowds in general and being around people too long tend to drain me very quickly cognitively and I know many people will want to talk and try to talk to me at the service but my speech is basically completely gone at the moment and when I do try it comes out barely discernible. I know it will be very overwhelming and basically I don’t know how I can navigate this situation where I can’t talk to people. Its scary to me. I will also be in a wheelchair which will also probably shock some people who haven’t seen me since being diagnosed but that’s more of a me thing. Does anyone have some advice for me? I just feel so overwhelmed with sadness and I’ve been using all my strength on writing the eulogy and preparing I realise I will have to idk prepare myself for all the rest of the things that come with funeral regarding my fnd. I’ve already thought about how it might be a good idea to leave soon after the service… but I’m more at a loss with facing people who i currently can’t talk to while in a head space that feels very raw. Thank you for any thoughts you might have I hope this makes some sense. P.s I’m sorry in advance if I don’t reply to comments I’m very appreciative though.