Here we go again

[HoneyB11]

I’ve not posted since my miscarriage as needed to give myself a break from it all but am now about to start my second round of ivf (icsi) - with injections starting tomorrow.

I’m feeling extremely apprehensive about it because I feel so much more pressure this time around. Especially as it feels like all our eggs are (quite literally) in one basket. Due to my low AMH we didn’t qualify for NHS so have self funded and the only option open to us from Access Fertility was a two cycle option. As we only had one egg fertilise from the first round with nothing to freeze - this feels like our last chance. At a push we may be able to afford a third round but it would wipe out all of our savings. My husband is a charity worker so is on a low wage and my wage pays the bills.

I really want to be positive and I’m usually a glass half full girl but I’m terrified that it’s not going to work. After experiencing the lows and highs I’ve been through - the disappointment of the first round failing, then falling pregnant naturally (our little miracle) which then ended at just 6.5 weeks… I also feel like I need to hope for the best but prepare myself for the worst.

This forum was such a huge help to me during the first round and I hope I’ve helped others too.

Sending baby dust to you all

Lis x

[MiniCeeCee]

Sending lots of luck to you in the process, and so sorry to hear what you’ve been through this far. I really hope it all works out for you, like you I’m finding this forum really helpful to hear and share stories. I’m about to start my first round of IVF (ICSI) in the next month, so I’m holding up hope for us both! I’m finding listening to a lot of podcasts helpful - Big Fat Negative in particular, and there is also a podcast episode of ‘How to fail’ with Sarah Pascoe as a guest, and she talks about her infertility and miscarriage journey, and it’s a really helpful conversation to listen to. I’ll continue to share tips as and when they come in handy, but all the best with your next stage xx

[Anxiousintrovert]

just want to wish you best of luck, keeping you in my thoughts x

[Babytocome]

I am sorry about the miscarriage, it must be super hard! counselling might help, I didn’t go but many people said it has helped. Also remember there are many ways to have a family, I used to think it was the ONLY one. But the most important in all this is our inner journey and mental peace. B e possitive that it will work! Good luck

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

Hi HoneyB. You have a look at what you have been through, some dreadful times. You’ve done the right thing and had a break. Try and look forward now, and hopefully this will be your time. Thinking of you. Diane

[Nabsal]

Best of luck dear. Everything will be okay