My dream ended 😞

[Jrss1]

After getting so excited thinking this was my time, it’s all come crashing down yet again with another loss. Why is this journey so cruel? It was looking so promising, my lines were darker than I think I’ve ever had. I really thought this one was it 😢

[Ranchu90]

I am so sorry to hear that, I know how devastating it is. I also had 3 chemicals 😤 Positive tests didn't mean anything for me, I wasn't happy to see 2 lines as I saw them so many times... Take your time and be kind to yourself...lots of love and encouragement from me ❤️

[Jrss1 in reply to Ranchu90]

Thank you so much Ranchu90, I appreciate you taking the time to reply to me. It’s kind people like you that helps me feel I’m not alone. I’m just so sad. I think the reality is setting in now. I’m wondering if it will ever happen for me. Thank you xx

[Ranchu90 in reply to Jrss1]

It will happen, you have to believe!!

[MrsOrangejuice]

I'm so sorry. It's such a cruel thing to go through. Look after yourself x

[Jrss1 in reply to MrsOrangejuice]

Thank you so much Mrs Orangejuice. It really is so cruel. Thank you for your support xx

[MrsOrangejuice in reply to Jrss1]

It's hard to think about now and I just felt numb straight after, then like it will just never happen/there's just something very wrong with me, but don't lose hope. When you're ready, see if your clinic can help you work through any options. And I got brilliant advice on here and everyone just wants to help and support, so you're not alone or lost x

[Jrss1 in reply to MrsOrangejuice]

Thank you for the advise. They have suggested repeating the Chicago bloods. What do you think?

[MrsOrangejuice in reply to Jrss1]

Sorry, I don't know what those are? I had quite a lot of tests and investigations (including before TTC due to gynae issues - incl. 2 laparoscopies and hysteroscopy, bloods including thyroid, clotting, 'sticky blood') and after the two early losses, I went through with my consultant anything he or I thought could still be tested for or relevant; he pretty much ruled everything out as he thought if we were getting implantation and then development for at least a little while, plus existing results (including sperm) and our ages were fine, it was numbers. The only thing we could settle on was more progesterone - specifically changing from progesterone rectally to vaginally (meant to be better absorbed for some women with past/endometriosis in particular) and adding lubion. Used embryo glue and aspirin for the FET but I think there's not a huge amount of evidence for those, but they certainly didn't hurt. Sorry not to be more helpful x

[Llizzie]

I’m so sorry to hear this. I’ve been thinking about you this week and hoping you were hearing positive news. Sending you a hug xxx

[Jrss1 in reply to Llizzie]

Thank you so much Llizzie. I hope some day I can share good news. I’m just feeling so sad today. Think it’s just hitting me. It’s just such an unfair process. Thanks for the hug, you are so nice to care about me. I appreciate it xx

[FrancyItaly]

I’m so sorry to read this post, it’s so unfair and cruel! I am assuming you’ve already done all the tests to find out the reason of your losses? I know they are infinite, have you tested your NK cells? Sending you a massive hug 💕

[Jrss1 in reply to FrancyItaly]

Thank you FrancyItaly, I have done so many tests but the clinic have suggested repeating the Chicago bloods. The only thing about them are it takes ages and if they find something it will be at least 8 weeks to fix. Time is not really on my side but maybe they will give me the answer? Thanks for the hug, I need as many as I can get right now xx 😘

[Picalilli99]

I’m so sorry lovely. It just feels so cruel to get that positive result only for it to be taken away again so soon (we have been there many times too). Be kind to yourself if you can, it’s such a devastating blow. Sending you love and huge hugs 💞xxx

[Jrss1 in reply to Picalilli99]

😘 xx

[Jrss1]

Thank you so much Picalilli99, yeah it’s so hard. The one thing that helps me is this forum and seeing the happy endings and that keeps my hopes up somewhat. Everyone is so lovely and you all know how it feels. Thank you for the hugs, so much appreciated 😘 xx

[Daughterofaking]

I am.so sorry to read this, I know how you feel. Please take your time and be hopefully that you will carry your baby. Be kind to yourself. We look forward to celebrating with you soon. That day is near. Much hugs. XX

[Jrss1 in reply to Daughterofaking]

Thank you for your kind reply. Yes, hopefully one day I will share good news but right now it seems like that will never happen. Im going to look into a few more tests and see if that helps. Thank you for taking the time to write to me, it means a lot 😘 xx

[JudithSS]

I’m so sorry hunny! Just take some time for you self to process everything xx

[Jrss1 in reply to JudithSS]

Thank you so much, I’ll try. 😘 xx

[Sparklylife]

I am so sorry Jrss1 ! Sending you a hug! 🥺🧡

[Jrss1 in reply to Sparklylife]

Thank you 😘 xx

[SuzyL123]

I’m so sorry to hear this, we have just had the same this week for our 6th transfer, it literally leaves you feeling like What the Actual F***!!I have so many questions of why it isn’t working for us and how long to keep going!

I had some really good responses from people on here about extra tests and steroid/intralipid treatment for high killer cells so we’re going to push for that and give it 1 last go!

Good luck and remember you’re never alone in this exhausting shitty journey!x

[Jana483]

I am soooo so so sorry 😭😭😭

Your lines were soooo dark I can't belive it!

I know how you feel it's awful can't even find the words to make you feel better.

I know that times heal wounds but with ivf it's hard and it takes even more time.

[Hope-and-faith]

Don’t give up hope Jrss1. I’ve gone through 9 IVF goes over 3.5 years and now have a 10 month old daughter. It’s a very hard journey. On the 9th transfer we added steroids, followed ERA timing, I took metformin, took extra progesterone and prior to transfer I started to do a lot of walking and following anti inflammatory diet.

[Twiglet2]

I’m so sorry 😢 sending you lots of love and hugs, it’s worse than a negative when your hopes are raised and then dashed. I hope you are able to take some time to heal xx

[MamaWeez]

I’m so sorry you are going through this. It’s heartbreaking especially if you have been through this many times. I’ve had 3 chemicals and 1 miscarriage before I was successful. I was going to give up on my dreams before getting the courage to try again. Your time will come, believe in that. It might take longer than you initially expected but it will come. It will all be worth it at the end. Sending you lots of love xxxx

[Booda21]

So sorry to hear this. Sending you lots of love 💕

[Hells18]

I’m so so sorry to hear this ❤️Thinking of lots of hugs xx

[Redsequin]

Oh no I’m so so sorry. It’s just not fair. I hope you have loved ones looking after you xxxx

[Corchi]

Everyone here is here for you! I can feel your immense hurting and pain and i am so sorry its so cruel and SO unfair. You just have to take the time to heal and cry and let it out and when you are ready just keep going. I had 4 chemical and 2 3 month miscarriages. It was so tough. i finally had a baby boy naturally and then another with IVF. Belive it will happen, thats my only advice. This journey is so personal to each person and how much each person wants to keep at it. Here for you if you ever need to talk. xxx

[Millbanks]

Sending you so much love xxx ❤️

[Bozo_the_pumpkin]

I am so sorry.. it is heartbreaking to have gotten your BFP and then for it to be snatched away. Take heart… it will happen. You can clearly get pregnant-just a few snags to sort out to make it stick. Thinking of you and sending you big hugs xx

[BleuM]

I’m so sorry, sending positive thoughts your way.