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It's ok not to be ok πŸ’—

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Hey my lovely ladies. My fears were right so it was another chemical. My progesterone levels were absolutely fine but HCG only 11 so that's it for this round. Will have a glass or maybe a bottle of wine tonight, wait one bleed and try my last frostie in October πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°

A friend of mine just sent me that:

It's OK

It's okay that you still don't understand what to do

It's okay that you feel scared

It's okay to cry

It's okay to scream

It's okay that you're tired

It's okay that you're angry

It's okay to ask for a hug

It's okay to share

It's okay that your life has changed

It's okay to feel weak

It's okay to be moody

It's okay to feel loved

It's okay to ask for help

It's OK...

Sooner or later everything will be amazing for all of us! We just have to keep fighting! Sending tones of love and hugs and thank you ever so much for the great support always! πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ™πŸ™πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—

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Cinderella5

Ahhh bless you honey, Im so sorry! Sending loads of love and hugs your way.xxx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toCinderella5

Thank hun. And thank you for being always here for me too Its very much appreciated! Sending tones of hugs your way too! πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—xxx

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Kyell2

I am so so sorry. It’s all so bloody unfair.

What I do know is that you have always been so positive and strong and will get through this. Enjoy your wine and have a weekend off and then get ready for it to be a successful next transfer 🀞🀞🀞

xxxx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toKyell2

That's life so we have to just get on with it and carry on! Next time will be my time maybe 😁😁😁

And to you wishing happy and pregnancy hun πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—xx

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HopeTTC18

So sorry to hear that, take good care of you and enjoy that wine! Fingers crossed for October x

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toHopeTTC18

Thanks hun! Every will be fine and maybe will be sooner than we think!

Hope you are feeling great! πŸ’—πŸ’—xx

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Tomorrow_1

So sorry to hear that, hun. Stay strong and positive. I'm sure your chance will come. And enjoy the wine!

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toTomorrow_1

I will stay strong and positive until I get what I'm fighting for!

Hope you are doing well hun πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°xx

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Shirazlover2013

You are an amazingly strong woman πŸ’ͺπŸ’ͺ I wish I was as strong as you are my lovely. Thank you for a beautiful post, a reminder a lot of us need / will need. Xx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toShirazlover2013

Trying my best for myself and everyone else struggling with infertility! Our time will come and will be absolutely amazing! Sending lots of hugs your way hun xx

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Gem2410

I’m sorry to read this. Your posts are always so positive. I hope you enjoy your wine tonight, and have a much deserved rest. The time will come 😊 Good luck for October xx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toGem2410

Thanks hun and all the best to you too! Xx

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gemmy999

I’m so sorry to hear this πŸ’” what a lovely thing your friend shared with you and so true. Great words. Big hugs πŸ€— xxx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply togemmy999

She is a truly great friend! Thanks hun!

Best of luck to you and I'm sending tones of baby dust your way xxx

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gemmy999β€’ in reply toKlndmr

Thank you xxx

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Core

So sorry to read this, what a lovely message from your friend and a very true message, look after yourself xx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toCore

Thanks hun!

Hope this is your time and you share some good news with us soon! πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™πŸ€žπŸ€žπŸ€žπŸ€žπŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—

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Coreβ€’ in reply toKlndmr

Thank you so much xx

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Lou7744

Aww... I’m so sorry to read this. You sound an amazingly strong lady and I have no doubt that you will soldier forward until you achieve your dream πŸ’•

For now though, you enjoy that wine πŸ·πŸ’• xx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toLou7744

Trying my best! Will fight till I get that baby! 😁

Hope you are doing well hun xxx

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AS100

Big hugs for you πŸ€— sadly I’ll be joining you in a glass tonight 🍷 does sound like you have a lovely friend there ❀️ xxx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toAS100

Oyy I'm so sorry hun πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’— Cheers to us and next time will be our time! Sending tones of hugs and love your way xxx

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Jebby86

I’m so sorry. Sending you lots of love. Look after each other and be kind to yourself. Xx ❀️

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toJebby86

Will do that! Thank hun xxx

Best of luck for tomorrow and I hope you share the best news! Xxx

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Nikitela

Hi dear, im so sorry to hear that , take care of yourself, xxxxπŸ˜™

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toNikitela

You too hun! Best of luck for you scan and I hope with all my heart everything turns out great for you! πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™xxx

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Nikitelaβ€’ in reply toKlndmr

Thanks a lot dear, will give you the updateπŸ˜—

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Noah1981

I’m gutted for you I’ve been hoping and praying things would go your way and your friend is right it is ok not to be ok your not on your own we are all here in the back round cheering each other on and pushing each other forward have that bottle of wine gather your thoughts have that cry then you will be even stronger for October ms round and it will be your time much love to you darling xxx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toNoah1981

Aww thanks hun. All the support here is a huge relief for me and helps me keep going! Better times are on the way and everything will be great!

Best of luck to you too hun and lots of baby dust! Xxx

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Sunshineraye

So sorry hun :( sending lots of love xx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toSunshineraye

Thanks hun! This time I'm fine kind if got the news in better and calmer! πŸ₯°

Best of luck and hope you get your BFP!!!! Sending tones of baby dust your way 🀞🀞🀞🀞πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°xx

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Sunshinerayeβ€’ in reply toKlndmr

Thank you lovely. Never give up πŸ’• πŸ’« xx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toSunshineraye

Never! πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°xx

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Lorry1984

Im sorry to hear this. It sounds like you have a good friend there. Take care of yourself and enjoy your wine tonight! xx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toLorry1984

Yeap she is great and always there for me!

Congratulations on your BFP and wishing you health and happiness only from now on! πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°xxx

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Georgie17

I'm so sorry, it is so hard. Do make sure to do a test on OTD just in case. Hang in there, our time will come xx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toGeorgie17

OTD was today so that's all for me this time. But we will keep going and you and me and everyone else will get what we want!!!! Cheers xxx

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Solly-44

I’m so sorry lovely. Have that glass or bottle, it really is ok to not be ok. Look after yourself xx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toSolly-44

Thanks hun πŸ₯° Its ok to not be ok we are humans and we have emotions and is better we Express our emotions so we can carry on! Hope you are well xxxx

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MissSaoPaulo

I'm so sorry hon xxx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toMissSaoPaulo

Thanks hun xxx

I'm holding on to my last frostie, he/she will be the lucky one πŸ€žπŸ€žπŸ™πŸ™πŸ₯°πŸ₯°xx

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Kiedy84

Absolutely gutted hun xxx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toKiedy84

Next time things will work out better πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°xxxxx

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Kiedy84β€’ in reply toKlndmr

You are amazing xx here for you if you want to chat xx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toKiedy84

Thank so much hun πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—xx

So sorry to read that. That poem is great - spot on. Hugs. X

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply to

Absolutely! Lots of hugs your way too hun xx Hope you are doing well xx

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Lots8788

πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—xxx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toLots8788

πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’— Thank you for being here for me hun πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™

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Lots8788β€’ in reply toKlndmr

Always here hun πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ˜˜πŸ˜˜ thank you to you too!! xxx πŸ’ͺπŸ’ͺπŸ’ͺπŸ˜˜πŸ€—

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Dreamingofbaby

Bless u Hun so sorry for this but def right from friend that is ok not to be ok and tAke time to grieve. Ur time I hope will come. Take good care xx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toDreamingofbaby

No grieving but getting on with life and with another FET! My way of grieving is by having a plan in place and taking action πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ™ˆπŸ€žπŸ™πŸ™πŸ™ˆπŸ€ž

And to you wishing healthy and happy pregnancy and only happiness from now in! πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ€žπŸ€žπŸ€žπŸ€žπŸ€žxxx

Hi Klndmr,

I am so sorry to here this for you again.πŸ€—You are such a positive soul.πŸ’–We have all got your back here and feel your pain.

Louise

Xxxx😘

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply to

Aww thanks hun. Trying my best πŸ₯° My consultant was quite shocked of the way I was (smiling and laughing) and I told him that's the only thing I can do. Even if I throw myself on the floor crying I won't change how things went so I need to stay positive!

Stay positive and sooner or later we will get there!!! πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—

Love Rosie xx

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Kempton

Really sorry to hear this but glad you are looking forward. Relax and enjoy having a drink and other things you wouldn't otherwise.

If it's any consolation my BFP was my last remaining embryo (although we only actually had 2 in total so I only went through the pain of a failed transfer once). Maybe that's the magic embryo waiting. Hope so.

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toKempton

Thank you! I'm fine this time I kind of accepted the reality easier πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’— and enjoying my bottle of wine now Haha xx

Hope you are doing well xx

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Livinginhope2019

So sorry for your news, sending you big hugs xx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toLivinginhope2019

Thanks hun! Sending millions hugs your way and sending tones of baby dust for October xxxxx

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Livinginhope2019β€’ in reply toKlndmr

Thank you xx

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everhopeful83

Aw I’m so sorry to read this β˜ΉοΈπŸ’ž

Sending you the biggest hugs❀️❀️xxx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toeverhopeful83

Thanks hun! Tones of hugs your way too!

Wishing you health and happiness only from now on πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ’—πŸ’—xxx

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everhopeful83β€’ in reply toKlndmr

You are so so kindπŸ’–thank youπŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–xxx

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TRYING2016

Just sending you so much love your way....... big hug xxxxxxxxx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toTRYING2016

Awww thanks hun! Sending tones of hugs and love back to you too! Xxx

I am so sorry ! You are amazingly strong and brave ! X

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply to

Thanks hun πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—

Hope you are well πŸ₯°xx

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Emma04

I’m so sorry to read this and it’s def ok not to be ok. You are always so positive but sometimes it’s so hard. Enjoy the wine and then the very best of luck for the next round. Xxx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toEmma04

Thank youuu πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯° Next time will be my time! πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—

Hope you are feeling great and enjoying your pregnancy! Wishing you health and happiness πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°xxx

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Millbanks

Sending so much love to you. This journey is a tough one for all of us in our own way, but we keep fighting. You have the strength within you πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toMillbanks

Hey hun. Thank you! It is a very very tough road but as you said we are fighters and will keep fighting! Hope you are recovering well! Sending much love your way πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ₯°xxx

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Millbanksβ€’ in reply toKlndmr

Thank you πŸ’– yep on the mend and feeling more positive now. Looking forward to my wedding in 2 weeks! Eeeeeek! Xx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toMillbanks

Awwww that's great. The best day of your life is just about to happen. When I watch my video I wish I could get married every year (to the same guy of course).. Have the best day ever hun πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—xx

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Millbanksβ€’ in reply toKlndmr

Haha! Excellent! I’m very excited xxx

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Judy18

I am so sorry things have not worked out this time. I love what you friend sent (and thank you for sharing). We spend so long being strong while being poked and prodded that i think we sometimes forget that it is bloody hard. It is ok! Even if you don everything mentioned in your post doesn’t take away from the fact that we are warriors and will make amazing parents (however we get to that end point). Sp much love and massive hugs being sent! Xx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toJudy18

Definitely, we will be the best part the world has ever seen! And will be absolutely amazing! Sending lots of love your way too and wishing you the very best of luck! πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°

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Kat_15

I’m so sorry lovely, my heart goes out to you. Sending big hugs. Xxx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toKat_15

Thanks hun. Same to you πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’— Hope you are doing well xx

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3005

So sorry to read this, you have an amazingly positive attitude and will get your happy ever after one day I’m sure x

Enjoy that glass of wine 🍷

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply to3005

I actually had a while bottle πŸ₯΄πŸ₯΄πŸ₯΄πŸ₯΄πŸ€£πŸ€£πŸ€£πŸ€£πŸ€£ definitely helped me feel better 🀣

How are you? Hope you are doing well πŸ’—πŸ’—xx

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3005β€’ in reply toKlndmr

I’m ok thanks... just going through the motions and hoping to get some answers at our follow up appointment x

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply to3005

I wasn't even offered a follow up this time which quite shocked me but been told to call on my day 1 of 2nd bleed to book me in for a transfer...

Hope the follow up goes well and they are able to give you answer and find solutions for improvement πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—

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Kat9lives

So sorry to hear this. You sound amazingly strong, and are an inspiration xxx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toKat9lives

Awww thanks hun πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯° Best of luck with your round and I really hope it works first Tim 🀞🀞🀞🀞🀞πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°xx

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Kat9livesβ€’ in reply toKlndmr

Thanks lovely. This is my 4th cycle! (I have a daughter from cycle 2) Xx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toKat9lives

Yes I went through your posts πŸ₯° hope your daughter gets a sibling soon πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°

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Elynn

So sorry 🌼🌼

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toElynn

Thank you πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—

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Drives

Really gutted to see this post. Sending you a massive hug 😘

Take care of yourself x x x x

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toDrives

Hey hey thanks hun. I'm doing well and just getting on with life and thinking how long to wait before we transfer my last frostie 🀣🀣πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆ

Hope you are feeling great love xx

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jengi

Awh huni, I’m so sorry to read this. Sending you big hugs. Keep strong and one day your dream will come true. Never give up and remember we are all here on the sidelines nudging you forward Xx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply tojengi

Thanks hun! I'm so grateful to you all for the amazing support.

Best of luck with your transfer! This will be the one for you I will have everything crossed for you πŸ€žπŸ€žπŸ€žπŸ€žπŸ€žπŸ€žπŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸŒˆπŸŒˆπŸŒˆxxx

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jengiβ€’ in reply toKlndmr

🀞🏻😘

I just want to say am sorry and that I think you’re an absolute rockstar for keeping your spirits up and everyone else’s too xxx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply to

Aww thanks hun I'm trying my best. Trying to have less dark days and more positivity because at the end of the day I can't really change what happened πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯° I will keep fight and sooner or later everything will be great!

Hope you are doing well xx

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Tugsgirl

I’m so sorry to read this. I had hoped it was your time as you’re generally so positive. I truly hope the next shot is a sticky one! ✨ xx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toTugsgirl

Aww thanks hun. I was hoping as well but deep inside had that terrible negativity feeling. Life goes on and sooner or later my time will come too πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—

Hope you are well xxx

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aamiller405

Aw im so sorry. Sending love xo

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toaamiller405

Thanks hun. I'm so sorry for your loss too. Hope you are doing well πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’— We will keep fighting and soon our time will come too! πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°

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aamiller405β€’ in reply toKlndmr

Thank you.. Yes we'll get there in the end xo

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Kcrochet

Really sorry for this, sending you hugs and hopes that your next frostie will be the charm xx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toKcrochet

Thanks hun! Maybe my last one will be the lucky one hihi πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ™πŸ™

Congratulations of the birth of your beautiful girl. She was born just a day before my birthday πŸ₯° Wishing you all only health and endless happiness from now on πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™πŸ’—πŸ’—

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Jen_jen

Sending big, big hugs to you πŸ’• I just know it will happen for you. Stay strong πŸ’ͺ🏼 😘 xx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toJen_jen

Thank youu πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™ my time will come too I do believe that πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°

Hope you are feeling great and you 20 weeks scan went well xxx

You're very strong. I'm sorry for such shitty news and thinking of you xx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toItsalongjourney26

Very shitty news really if I didn't test early I wouldn't even know most probably. Sooner or later my time will come as well. Hope you are well πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°xx

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KriSho

You are an amazing strong and a positive person. I'm sorry to hear your news. Sending you lots of hugs β™₯οΈπŸ€—

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toKriSho

Thanks hun. I will be alright πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’— Hope you are doing well too. How's everything going? Xx

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KriShoβ€’ in reply toKlndmr

Hey!! I'm fine thank you. Started the pessaries yesterday and transfer is booked for Friday. The clinic will give me a call once the embryo has thawed successfully. Took time off from work for Friday 🀞🀞

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toKriSho

Yayy some exciting times ahead! Best of luck and Sending you lost of love and baby dust πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ€žπŸ€žπŸ€žπŸ€žxx

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Rowly88

I just saw your recent posts, I'm so sorry to hear your news. Absolutely devastated for you xx sending you both so much love and humongous hugs during this difficult time xx

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Klndmrβ€’ in reply toRowly88

Hey hey. Thanks hun πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’— I've been punching that b.... infertility on the face in the past few days and made me feel better 🀣🀣🀣🀣🀣

Hope you are doing well hun xxx

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