Update of my second scan!

[Paris1771]

Hi

We went for our second scan today and unfortunately it didnt grow up at all and it is maybe an early missed misscarriage! The dr told me to wait until 10 days to get my menstruation and if it doesnt happen they will start the abortion for me!

I have no sign of misscarriage or bleeding! Just hope it happens A.S.A.P coz Im too tired of it! Cried a little bit but feel better than last week! It is good to know what is happening instead of waiting like in the air! The dr said I can still have my ivf service for my last turn however Im turning 40 on April!

My life is so f.. up with all of these horrible experiences and have no energy to fight anymore!

Sorry for my hopeless, depressing post! Just feel too down at the moment!

Wish u all the greatest ones in the world! xxx

[NCS88]

Sorry to read this - I hope you can get some rest and start to feel bit better soon. It might not feel like it right now but the feeling won't last forever. xxxx

[Paris1771 in reply to NCS88]

Thank u so much! Yes I just hope the bleeding comes by itself and not get more complicated! xxxxx

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

Hi Paris. So, so sorry to be reading this. All I can say is that I hope the inevitable happens soon and is straightforward. Hope you’ve got lots of support around you just now. Get yourself fully recovered before thinking about more IVF. You’re more important just now. Thinking of you. Diane

[Paris1771 in reply to DianeArnold]

Hi dear Diane! Thank u so much! Yes I do hope that it gets over quickly by itself! I feel so fragile at the moment which is normal in this situation and fortunately my husband is sooo kind and tries to help me so much! He is the only family I have in this country but he is really supportive!

Yeah,about the ivf I should c what they say but honestly I prefer not to rush in coz Im too tired about every single step of it now! xxxx

[Lizzielizzielizzie]

I’m so sorry x

[Paris1771 in reply to Lizzielizzielizzie]

Thank u! xxxx

[Tugsgirl]

Sorry to read this xx

[Paris1771 in reply to Tugsgirl]

Thanx dear! xxx

[MissSaoPaulo]

I'm really sorry to see this hon, take good care of yourself xxx

[Paris1771 in reply to MissSaoPaulo]

Thank u dear! Yes Im trying to do that! xxxx

[2018hopeful]

So sorry for your loss, look after yourself x

[Paris1771 in reply to 2018hopeful]

Thank u so much! xxxx

[Cinderella5]

Im so so sorry to hear this! Sending huge hugs, its all so incredibly unfair!! Lots of love.xx

[Paris1771 in reply to Cinderella5]

Thank u! Yes I wished at least I could understand why it is happening to me so cruely! But as u say it is simply unfair life in all around the world!

Wish u all the best! xxxx

[wilbie]

I’m so sorry to hear this. Be kind to yourself and absorb all the love around you. Take care x

[Paris1771 in reply to wilbie]

Thank u so much! xxxxx

[Hidden]

I am so so sorry to read this. It is heartbreaking especially after the battles to finally get the bfp, and then this. Really wishing you big hugs xx

[Paris1771 in reply to Hidden]

Thank u dear Camillage! Yes, it is really sad and I feel too week in this battle! Xxxxx

[Hidden in reply to Paris1771]

Take time to digest and heal. The waiting around is harder than anything as you still have a faint hope.

I hope you have closure sooner rather than later. Xxx

[Paris1771 in reply to Hidden]

Yes u r right! Im just trying to help myself and Im so scared of abortion process! Hope I get over it soon! xxxx

[Hidden]

Im so sorry to read this. I waited 7 days but nothing happened so I got a referral to the EPU to talk about options. I found the waiting was so difficult and like you wanted to just keep moving forward. I hope things resolve for you soon x

[Paris1771 in reply to Hidden]

Sorry that u had the same tough situation like me! It is unbearable to just wait and then get an awful answer! Hope u all the best and luck dear! xxxx

[Saya85]

Oh im so sorry Paris to read this!

Was really hoping things would turn around for you - did they also do hcg bloods to confirm miscarriage?

I was like you in that i just wanted it over with as quickly as possible so i could regain my strength

I'm still working on that atm but have a holiday booked this weekend and so looking forward to the future

I think you are right to wait for next ivf. Take some time to heal and enjoy time with your husband after. The healing physically can take a while xx

[Paris1771 in reply to Saya85]

Hi dear Saya!

Yes u know well what Im going through! It is too hard to digest but I just keep telling myself, what if it grew up more and then the abortion would be much harder! Or if he/she born as a unnormal child! Coz maybe there was a cromosomal problem or sth! We just dont know what the problem was!

Actually they didnt do any hcg test as the dr was sure that it is too small to be healthy and she said it is not normal to c the fetus as small as this one! They gave me 10 days to wait for menstruation but I dont think it comes and then they will help with abortion! Did u have your mens by itself or u had an abortion?

It is great that u planned a holiday at weekend

I came to work today coz really couldnt stay at home but will plan to go somewhere under the weekend too!

Hope we get healed as soon as possible and go forward for better days! xxxxxxx

[Saya85 in reply to Paris1771]

Aww yes it can be quite a mystery and sometimes we don't know what the consequences could be in future

I had a very heavy bleed to begin with which is why we miscarried

But when I came off the ivf meds I had another massive bleed

Because I was 5/6 weeks it passed naturally

I hope yours is smooth too x

[Paris1771 in reply to Saya85]

It was good that u had the bleeding naturally! Im on week7 now but the size is too small! However my uterus doesnt seem to leave it ! I have still all my pregnancy signs and no bleeding yet! Hope it comes naturally soon! xxxx