My last attempt at IVF and my egg didn’t survive after egg collection 💔

[Missionofendo]

I’m not sure why I’m reaching out this weeks been hard.

My last IVF due to my age of 46 and after all the effort of stimulating and travelling to Greece for the operation and it’s all over and it’s sad. My egg died after it was washed.💔 I only had one good one.

I knew the risks but had all that hope.

Doing it alone so don’t have that partner to lean on.

I’m struggling no one else understands like the women on here. It’s just a really hard and lonely time x

[Kmcdon]

So sorry to hear this. It's so hard and can feel incredibly lonely. IVF is just so difficult and all consuming. Are you feeling like you want to continue or do you think you are done? I would say I have definitely been where you have been and I did take some time to think about what I would do next. Initially I felt I was done but after a couple of weeks wanted to carry on. Are DE an option for you? I hadn't really thought about it until after 5 cycles with my OE which gave ever decreasing results. I hope whatever decision you come to you feel it's right for you. Sending lots of love at this difficult time. Xx

[Missionofendo in reply to Kmcdon]

Thanks for your reply. It means a lot to hear your feedback.

Such a hard journey and time I’ve come on which has brought all the upset to the surface.

I’m scared with DE as there is also so much risk of it not working.

Adoption is another route but could take years.

Realistically it being at the end of the road for my own eggs is just a hard one.

The dedication we all put into this, the scans, the blood test the egg collection the cost of the mental physical stress.

We should all be proud to have got thru it. Everyone says aren’t you strong.

But when it doesn’t work and your times done you feel ashamed and weak and really wonder why it’s not your turn.

I’ll be ok I’m sure the as we all know the shock and pain will calm down.

Thanks again and best wishes for whatever path you are on.

Claire x

[Littlepeax in reply to Missionofendo]

You are def not weak and you certainly shouldn't feel ashamed ♥️

[Missionofendo in reply to Littlepeax]

I think we all do at some stage all that work and effort and dedication 😞💔

[Kmcdon in reply to Missionofendo]

I definitely felt that way. I'm actually not sure what made me keep going - just a feeling I needed to. My journey was really long and I definitely had moments where I thought about giving up. Focus on what's best for you. Any questions about DE just send me a message. Xx

[Missionofendo in reply to Kmcdon]

Thanks so much I’ll send some questions on DM I appreciate your help x

[Littlepeax]

I'm so sorry to read this. 😔 I really feel for you, especially doing it alone. Brave strong women ♥️

I know a few people on here have had huge success with DE.. maybe not now but in time you might want to go down that route. I even started looking at it myself previously just for a bit of hope and something to hold on to. I think DE is absolutely amazing and a good option. Buy see how you feel once you give yourself some time. Just know you are not alone lovely ♥️🫶 thinking of you. Xxx

[Missionofendo in reply to Littlepeax]

Bless you thanks for your kind words and also understanding. It’s like grief when it doesn’t work and really takes a lot out of you doesn’t it.

I will consider and speak to my clinic but right now it’s too hard when your in the thick of the emotions to make a clear plan.

I know other women who have been strong chose DE and I think they are amazing. Let’s see if I have it in me I really don’t know. 💔🫶

Thanks again it means so much your kindness and understanding. 🙏🩷

Claire x

[Littlepeax in reply to Missionofendo]

It really is like grief. It's awful and no one can understand unless they've been through it. Defo, I agree , give yourself time and look after yourself. Don't be hard on yourself, you gave it everything by the sounds of it ♥️ Always here if you fancy a chat or need any support. Xx

[Missionofendo in reply to Littlepeax]

Thanks so much that’s so kind and makes me feel better I’m a lot calmer this evening.

Thanks Again x

[Littlepeax in reply to Missionofendo]

♥️🫶

[Cinderella5]

Hey I'm so sorry for all that you are going through. Its a really tough time after a failed cycle and you also have your grief of coming to terms with stopping using your own eggs. I went to Greece and used DE, the success rates are way more in your favour, clinics can provide you with their success rates. I appreciate its a lot to get your head around buy its worth considering if you still want to continue trying to be a mum. Hugs.xx

[Missionofendo in reply to Cinderella5]

Morning, thanks for your message that does sound positive. I’ll speak to my Greek clinic before I make any final decisions. It feels a lot to get head around right now but I have to do it I have sperm on hold there.

Did you have a short journey to DE positive result? Do you mind me asking ?x