Thank you so much for your reply lesmal. I am in South Africa and looking for a nursing home in Cape Town or Durban.

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nudnikid thank you so much for your reply. but I already have tried all you recommended. I still keep my daily diary and make notes every single day. I have empty pages of a week or so - were I was totally convinced and more so excited that I was remembering - and those pages are still standing empty with no clue at all. I'm trying this new trick of taking pics now of everything I'm seeing or anywhere I am - to come back and look at a pic to trigger the memory. I have tons of reminders on my phone for things I need to do. please don't think I'm being difficult. its just I'm trying so much. And right now I see more independence instead of being treated as an invalid is what is needed. and since my own flat is not the answer now-the closest is a nursing home. I did have my own flat and car etc, since my parents passed on. I had to give it all up. My own dads funeral doesn't even click at all. Nothing at all, not where it was, not who I was with - not a single picture - even typing this now is not bringing a single picture to mind. not even the date clicks - I have to confirm in my diary. All I remember is when I ask my sis about the funeral is her telling me it was my own dads funeral and I just sat there staring when I should have at least pretended to cry. I even had the surgery 3 years ago. And that's more disappointing. the dr still has me on the same dosage of meds prior to the surgery. so cant see the point of the surgery. and I had to question me still being on of the meds with the side effects being epilepsy if still on it for longer than the period specified and all the dr did was tear the script and give me a new one.

nudnikid thanks for your reply. I really am doing all I can-not just giving in. to the point were I proved to my dr abt him having me on meds I shouldn't be on. I have also tried all you are saying. I have my daily diary for years now. I'm even trying a new trick-where I'm taking pics of something I'm doing - and then few days later look at the pics instead of just reading my diary. I did have my own place, car, job etc,cos my parents are late -but, that I had to give up. that is why I am looking to go into a nursing home - cos right now it seems like the most independent place than living between family all the time. therefore I am not specifically asking for an epileptic nursing home or a home for invalids. I can take total care of myself physically and have an income so I will be able to cope in that way. I even worked at a large international co. and was first put of for 2 years first- they were kind enough after being diagnosed and treated - to accept my request to go back. I started in data capturing that didn't need memory. I managed very well to the point I qualified for a promotion. being grateful enough for taking me on - I declined a promotion to remain and perform my duties 100% correct. However, I did try the position was offered and things started going downhill from there. And since I've been put off work permanently and had the surgery etc. So as you can see I'm not giving up-but just sitting in my sisters home and going to the crèche next door Monday to Friday to be busy is not much accomplishment. There's a crèche next door and they are awesome - I'm not needed there - but they let me come in to keep busy. I also found the Upliftment programme and we go care clowning to the hospitals, to the seriously ill kids in wards. So I've tried lots but not just letting go. So please help me with any info. Thank you.