Hi guys, I'm new here and for the past year I have been having these bizarre symptoms once in a while that i simply dismissed as a panic attack provoked by my anxiety. Usually, these 'attacks' come out of nowhere. I can go through weeks without having one and then suddenly experience ten in a day. Sometimes I believe they are triggered by alcohol or nervousness, although I can also be extremely happy and in a good place in my life and yet suddenly randomly have one. For me the main symptom is a very intense feeling of deja vu like I'm remembering a strange dream or something. As I'm experiencing this deja vu an absolute feeling of terror washes over me for absolutely no reason. During this time, I am still able to talk and act normally if I try to (usually I pretend I'm fine when I'm with my friends or I just go quiet) but I feel extremely detached from surroundings like my body or my mind isn't really in the room. After the intense feeling of fear and deja vu disappears I get a strange metallic taste in my mouth. When it stops, no matter how hard I try, I can never remember what my deja vu/ dream I was remembering was about and I immediately go back to feeling normal. The whole 'attack' lasts under a minute. Like I mentioned earlier, I used to dismiss these as panic attacks but since I've done some research online my symptoms seem to eerily similar to simple partial seizures. I am one hundred percent going to see a doctor about this (I have booked an appointment) but I am very scared about being diagnosed and the effect it will have on me for the rest of my life. I know I sound stupid but I'm only 22 and although what I've been experiencing is horrible it doesn't effect my daily life as the attacks are so sporadic and I am fortunate enough to be able to go back to normal immediately after having one. Being diagnosed with epilepsy sounds so scary and my parents will naturally freak out when I tell them. It's awful to say but a small part of me wonders whether I'd feel better leaving it undiagonised than having to confront it. I don't really know where I'm going with this, I just wondered if anyone has gone through a similar situation and can offer me some insight in how to deal with this as I'm feeling quite scared and lost. Thanks in advance!