Hi all. I fully planned to and succeeded in a 12 unit binge last night - half a dozen cans of beer in front of the telly. I'd been 4 days totally drink free, so I felt this was fine.
My main realisation this morning was that it was just "pointless". I wasn't stressed, didn't need to do it, didn't feel a craving....just did it. All it did was make me sleepy. So really it was a wasted night of drinking.
I see this as a good thing as I've thought it through today. I'm only 1 week into my journey so I'm not going to punish myself either. I definitely won't be drinking tonight (I'm driving) and my pledge is only to go totally drink free 3 nights a week and I've hit that target and more.
I'm not being complacent either, just trying to find what might work for me. As I say, thinking about my binge last night and also writing this post is a good tool for me.
I also confided in a close friend this morning about joining this Forum. She knew I was a heavy drinker, but it was cathartic and another positive step getting it out in the open to someone I respect and trust.
Thanks for listening.
First post on here 
Been lurking on here for a week... now it's time to talk about my drinking!
Moderation, not an option for me. 
