Just checking in.

[FatOldMan]

Hi all,

It's been a while since I last contributed to the group but I have been looking in from time to time to see how others are doing. What I have noticed however is that there has been a significant drop in participation lately, I suppose that I am as guilty as anyone here. This group helped me greatly when I first joined because I was really struggling and didn't really have anyone who understood. So I feel for people who are struggling especially new members who reach out to us and get very little response. If admin feel that I am overstepping here I will understand if you delete my comments.

Meanwhile I am still on a very rocky journey myself, I spent two weeks in Lanzarote and to my shame I reverted back to the old me, drinking about a pint of vodka per day and the odd bottle of vino for good measure. This caused the usual hangover and depression,how not to enjoy a holiday.

I have been back on the wagon since I got back three weeks ago so feeling a lot better, but I know I will probably relapse at some point in the future, I've just got to keep trying.

Best wishes to you all on your alcohol free journey.

[Jampacked]

Hi, how lovely to hear from you. That hat is fabulous. I need a photo of me wearing it . I will frame it and put it on the wall, as a constant reminder.😂 You are correct we need to hear how everyone is getting on ( good or bad) don't be shy. I am on day 14. I do feel different this time. I had January alcohol free then a couple of drinks in February. I found I was dreading the weekend for fear I was going to have a drink and not be able to stop. Moderation just mental gymnastics. I dont have the brain space and its doomed to failure. If I have one I will want another. I cannot say this will be forever what I do know is I have done a personal best of 34 days recently. This adds to my confidence that I can surpass 34 days and keep going. I really don't want to drink anymore. I have told people I am not drinking anymore ( I haven't done this before) The drinks I had in February I didn't enjoy. The anxiety before, during and after drinking were hideous even though I didn't drink much. I just absolutely know now it's not for me. I am rewiring my brain by listening to sobriety podcasts, currently listening to ' Sober Akward' on Spotify which is funny and uplifting. Blessings to you all. Husband just nipped out for a bottle of pop unexpectedly supportive. You can do this folks.