Elsie

[Elsie001]

hello. I am writing today as a am so sad, angry, worried and fed up with saying I won’t drink, then drinking, then being upset, then having a hang over and feeling really down only to drink again after making a feasible excuse that I can. I really do t know what to do.

[LilyAnnepuppy Ambassador]

Welcome to the Drink Free community. You’ve made a big step in posting how you’re feeling. I identify with what you’re going through. And I’m sure you’ll get other supportive comments too.

The path that works for me is Alcoholics Anonymous. But that’s not the only resource available. Read through some of the past posts. You may get some relief there. You are not alone.

Depending on how long and how much you’ve been drinking, you may need help with detox. Google facilities in your area. Or talk to your doctor.

We’re here for you.

[FatOldMan]

Hi Elsie, that post could have been written by me. That's the same roller coaster that I am on. I completely understand, and the only thing that I can say is don't give up ,that's what I keep telling myself. I find that using apps and websites like alcohol change and drink aware help me, but then I'm one of the people who likes lists and things.

[Elsie001 in reply to FatOldMan]

thankyou

[chloe40]

Hi Elsie001

We're so pleased you've found our friendly supportive Community.

Sound advice has already be given by our great members, I'd like to add, you're not alone here! Stay close, post often to gain the maximum support on offer here.

There's always someone to answer your posts.

You've made the first step, now let's try a second.

Sending support

Chloe

[DicCarlson]

Your journey is sooo familiar to so many people. One day at a time without drinking IS an accomplishment! Two days, then three - onward! Booze is a big lie - the ups and downs are you telling yourself - "It's OK, NO it's not, It's OK, NO it's not!

All that is gold does not glitter,

Not all those who wander are lost;

The old that is strong does not wither,

Deep roots are not reached by the frost.

From the ashes a fire shall be woken,

A light from the shadows shall spring;

Renewed shall be blade that was broken,

The crownless again shall be queen. (That's You!)

[Elsie001 in reply to DicCarlson]

thank you . I was just starting on a justification for tonight but that list will certainly help to ward it off.

[Elsie001]

at least one bottle of wine per night sometimes two. It makes me feel so ashamed and I hate myself for it. Also when I don’t I feel so much better. Stupid I know

[LilyAnnepuppy Ambassador in reply to Elsie001]

It’s not stupid. You may be allergic to alcohol. You may have a disease. It used to be called alcoholism, but the DSM-5 now calls it Alcohol Use Disorder. Whatever it’s called, I have it.

I can’t take one drink without wanting (and taking) another. I’m a blackout drinker when I drink. Talk about shame. Jeez, I suffered terribly.

Keep coming back.

[Isinatra]

Weaning doesn’t work for most people who want to stop drinking if that’s the goal. The brain doesn’t have a long enough chance for the craving to subside. Alcohol is a non issue for normal drinkers. But it was a big issue for me, and was afraid to talk about it for a long time until the shame wasn’t the issue. The issue became how to stop because I couldn’t cut back. I had lots of starts and stops, but 20 years ago, up until this minute, I haven’t drank. One of the reasons I have stayed sober is I didn’t take advice from people who still drink, even occasionally. If I was a diabetic, I wouldn’t take advice from a diabetic that didn’t know anything about diabetes or acted like they did when they didn’t. 🍀

[LilyAnnepuppy Ambassador]

How are you doing, Elsie001?