I keep letting myself down!!

[Mb86]

I was an alcoholic up until 2020 and I have been through several bits of help from services it was this time last year that I relapsed due to an attack by neighbors and we had to move into our new home quickly and I have tried stopping as after a couple of days of drinking I always come down with gastritis being sick. I am undergoing therapy but when you talk about alcohol it gives me the cravings for having one. I have my medication but it doesn't seem to help anymore, plus I was rushed to the hospital in April with gastritis and they put me on drips, and medication for alcohol withdrawals I really want to stop but the screams in my head just won't leave me alone and the fact is when i am like this and don't drink i get bad shakes do you think they can offer me medication for that.

[FatOldMan]

I understand where you are coming from the craving for alcohol can be awful. I try to remind myself just how awful it feels the morning after, not only the hangover but the feeling of disappointment because I failed again. I'm acutely aware of that right now because I was drinking last night although I did stop after a few, so very little hangover, just the guilt this morning.

The only thing that we can do is keep on trying.

Wishing you every success in the future.

[Mb86 in reply to FatOldMan]

It can so horrible but i have to fight this!! Hope you feel better soon!!

[FatOldMan in reply to Mb86]

Just back from a five miles walk so feeling a lot better and not beating myself up so much now.

[LilyAnnepuppy Ambassador]

Good morning. I’ve been where you’re at. Wanting and needing to stop and not being able to. For some, an in patient detox is necessary. Have you looked into that?

Alcoholics Anonymous was the path that worked for me. Here are two helpful links:

Aa.org

aa-intergroup.org/oiaa/meet...

I couldn’t get anywhere until I admitted I was (am) powerless over alcohol and my life had become unmanageable.

There are other resources to recovery. I hope you find one. In the meantime, keep posting here and let us know how you’re doing. Stay accountable.

And just don’t pick up a drink today.

[Mb86]

FatOldMan bless you and Hidden yes im on tablets AA i'm going have a look at in a bit and LilyAnnepuppy this amazing you setting this up thank u guys for replying.

[Mb86]

I just had to force myself to clean up as i felt low

[Mb86]

how did u do it xx

[Cb1963]

I've had problems with drinking in the past myself, but I'm sober for 11 years, obviously if you've had a session and are suffering with shakes or the delirium tremors medication can help stop the symptoms pretty quickly, libruim was used in the old days but I think they use diazapam these days, I had counselling for deep rooted ptsd problems which caused my drinking problems, and I also was attacked by my neighbour it caused so much stress we had to move house due to the violent attack , I had numerous health issues whilst drinking,and I'm now left with the legacy of neuropathy, nerve damage so don't carry on drinking the pain from drinking isn't worth it, I really hope your problems can get solved, best of luck