What makes you
love me?
Why do you stay?
Life with me can be
Shocking,
painful
and misguided.
My mind closes down
At the most inappropriate
Moments,
leaving me
Lost out there,
with no clue of
What I need to say
Or not to say.
I am wandering
Unable to find
My way home.
I am impulsive
And my need to
Do what should
Be done
When I think of it
Makes you crazy,
But my mind
Will forget
and recall
May not happen
So then it does
Not get done
Which makes
You crazy also.
Do you know what
Gets me?
This is forever…
My life has been
Altered permanently
And I, I had
No say in the
Direction I
Was going.
This road I’m on
Is fucked up!
Its bumpy,
Unrelenting path
Has me so
Incredibly
Frustrated
With no where
To vent,
To spew through
Whatever words
I can utter,
The truth of
My life
Is now lost in the
Short circuited
Electrical energy
Of my brain.
I see before me
My best friend,
My Lover,
my confidant,
my strength
Still here,
Arms opened wide,
Heart full of passion
Accepting me with
All my faults
Which are numerous
And growing.
Why do you
Love me?
Why do you stay?
My heart cries out
Its love for you,
But you can’t
hear it.
My soul speaks
To you,
My joy,
My contentment,
But my words
My words don’t
Seem to
Reach you,
they are caught up
In the labyrinth of
A diseased mind
Constantly seeking
Their way home
To you.
Jupiterjane