its 2 am again...your not sure if your awake or asleep..somewhere in between, never quite satisfying, straddling the fence so to speak. Every cell of your body is screaming to get off the fence...be awake or sleep just make either one happen. Screammming...this is a reflection of the inability of the Dr's to address your bodies needs.....Toss...Turn Groan drifffffftttt.....toss repeat...this is where the proverbial "rubber meets the road".....Toss, Turn Groannnn..repeat...during the daylight we drag ourselves up mount everest a hundred times a day.....never quite enough air, never quite warm, never quite comfortable...Robin....Robin...this is when your mind turns to Robin....the last refuge of suffering...a refuge in your own mind slightly different for each of us....its ok to start thinking about Robin...its ok to save the last refuge of guaranteed peace close to you ....its the last move in the chessgame...play it close to your vest and only get it out when your done....Toss, Turn, Groan, repeat, then climb everest.....repeat....Hang tough 2 am'ers, till you cant, then embrace your personal Robin....the fence is not forever..it just feels like it.....your quiet but your here...your not alone.....its ok to be weary....its ok......
References: 1. Chocolat the book
2. chocolat the movie
3. Robin