I’m apprehensive
The last 2 days I have deteriorated somewhat frightenly.
From coping to not coping.
My feet and calves have spasmned and twisted upon getting out of bed. I just want to collapse. Can manage a quick bathroom visit before it hits. Today with grabbing walking frame for support managed a metre or 2 before finding a perch. I felt numb all over. I am on my own as husband is in hospital with Renal failure. Had my phone with me so after a reasonable time, as it was about 5,30 am on a Sunday I phoned a neighbour who had a key, if she couif help. I had taken my first Madopar dose so it was a waiting game. She couldn’t lift me of course but gave me moral support and a cup of tea, I came good and stood up albeit very wobbly. I get stronger the longer I’m walking. I had heard Sifroll makes you dizzy and light headed. I have been that way for years so deliberately didn’t take it the day before. Certainly worked but was that the reason I had trouble this morning with the twisting of both feet and calves. Also all day have needed more Madopar to get through the day. I’m taking Sifrol ER again.
I’m very aprehensive now that my life is over. Quite depressed but trying to talk myself out of it. I have Just turned 71. Having a sick husband has stressed me too and probably that has contributed to my symptoms escalating. His Kidneys have responded to treatment and he’s still in hospital but has another hurdle as X-rays have found a shadow on one Lung which has been diagnosed a a cancer. Was waiting for an appointment with a specialist when this Renal problem hit him. I’m about to turn out the light and go to sleep where I can dream of better things but then wake up to reality and it starts all over again.