7 a.m … and its A&E

just posting for my own morale. Really dont like hospitals, but decided enough is enough. I need to be here. I’m as nervous as anything, my lumps hurt like anything but its the place to be. Well, no, I’d rather by in Jersey, but that wont fix my lump.

Its become ulcerated and is bleeding. While they can be left, this one no longer can.

when I got here, i nearly cried. I dont know why. My wife would be here but has other duties, notably playing Mother Christmas to make sure the boys get their presents. So i feel a bit alone while I wait.

So i put this down while I wait to help my keep my thinking nice and clear.

Im sure there are better things to do on a Thursday!!

But if medicine makes you nervous, then yes, I’m feeling it too ….

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7.50 a.m. just spoken with an amazing doctor or nurse. Dont know which, dont actually. Their personality was incredible. They were impressed by my ability to live with this. Thats nothing. I was more than impressed with his care. Nerves dissipating and fast ….. just talking to the right person, thats what I needed.

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9 a.m just had the news that the Doctor has never seen one of these lumps before!! Very touched by the honesty, but when the reaction was “Whoa!!” I guess it showed …. Doctors are human too and I’d forgotten that in the breakdown of my relationship with my GP. Ok the Doctors are talking technical. Thats good, i can talk technical with the best of them!! Back to waiting but had a cuppa….. tea makes the world better!

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9.30 a.m If you feel Doctors dont know everything your condition, it is so true. Mine have no idea who needs to sort this lump out… but that is cool. They are being very open on it and doing a superb job keeping me in the loop. Ive been so impressed with them. They are wanting to help, not quite knowing how, but keep checking in that Im ok. I am very ok, and all the nerves i had this morning are gone. Ive got some great people here, and while its hard for me, i can see its harder for them! They just dont know whose in tray i belong in …. I think I need more tea!!

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11 am ….. result!

Have a referral for surgery. And this flipping monster will be gone in the new year!! Theres a bit of a queue but never mind…..

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1 pm. Feeling like its been a long day. Making progress but hoping to head home soon…. Getting treatment can be tiring ….. tired now.

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4 p.m Home, safe and sound.

Its been a long day. I have though smashed the hurdles I wanted to smash. I have a referral for surgery I wanted. I don't have to worry about hurdles to jump, I jumped them.

Tired, but happy. I was finding roadblocks on my path. My Dad was right, Sometimes you just have to get grumpy till you clear them. He is, and always will be, my inspiration.

Tomorrow I plan to rest, and just recover from today. Anda then prepare for Chritsmas, with my family.

Sorry today has been a diary of my day. But posting as an when able kept my focused on what I need to, particular at points where i was emotional, because I was.

It felt to me like I had you all riding with me.

Till another day, lots of love to all from CB.

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Good on you, having the courage to face it... I hope all will go well

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Hey, Circuitbreaker! How's it been now?? Are doing ok, my man??? It seems you're doing better and having high hopes for whatever comes your way, which is good. Hang in there, man, and keep us posted anytime, remember you have your people here, so it's a good thing you seem to be doing better now. Enjoy Christmas because this is what it is about and have a Bright Happy New Year. Enjoy your family, your true friends and this wonderful time!!

Lots of Love!! 🍾🤩

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Yes, all good thanks, but yesterday was a roller coaster!

There is some infection in one lump, hence the need to emergency attention.

But then, I found no-one knew what the lumps are or were, that there was only surgery as an option, that may or may not have been possible there and then .... oh my goodness,

So it was one of those days where I didn't really know where the day would end, or when, or how.

So I jotted down on my phone what I was thinking at the time.

In the end, despite the lots of hanging around and not knowing, a decent plan for treatment has come up that probably wouldn't had I not had the infection!

A bizarre twist, maybe.

Most people get the ghosts of Christmas Past, Present and yet to be. Me ? Nah, I got two nurses, 3 doctors, a surgeon and possibly a partridge in a pear tree!

Its amazing though how an emotional roller coaster can leave you feeling drained afterwards, but maybe that's the antibiotics!

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Yo, my man, mmm, sounds like a challenge for both you and your doctors right there!! There's good news as I see it, and that's your straightforward attitude toward this challenge. Our minds play a big role in all this and can even speed up recovery and improve the effectiveness of healing and treatment. No doubt yours is on the right spot about it, cause I see you have the mindset of a winner now.

Keep at it, my man. Learn along with your doctors about your own body and how to best treat your condition. The more you learn the better and faster you can beat this for good.

Keep strong, brother!!

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Sending you best wishes for healing. Glad it seems that you may be able to get some real help. Take care.