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Yesterday I had one of the worst days I can recall in my whole life. I was trying to work in the office and found it impossible. I got in the car and sobbed like a child most of the way home .

Last night the relentless shriek began to subside and now it is a tolerable buzz . Immediately its as if yesterday never happened.

Its amazing how far down you can be thrown, and then how quickly you can recover. One bad day , however bad, is not your whole life . I must remember that next time

By the way I trying to contribute to others but I find there are so many posts its a bit bewildering -

My hat is off to the moderators ...must take all day

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Toughmathew profile image
Toughmathew

Hows your t now

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TinnitusUKPatPartner

I have to say, you've identified a really important issue - "Last night the relentless shriek began to subside and now it is a tolerable buzz . Immediately its as if yesterday never happened."

Tinnitus isn't forever - even when it feels as though it is.

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Happyrosie

Gloomster, you need to change your name to something like “inspiration” or “gladly” or something - your post is so helpful. Thank you.

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surviveT

you have to be careful with whst you eat - I have jsut had a really bad spike becasue i ate some pastrami in a sandwich - which is fullof chemicals like sodium nitrate and vinegar in the gherkins etc etc - avoid foods with chemicals and artificial additives

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TinnitusUKPatPartner in reply to surviveT

I'm not sure where the connection between sodium and tinnitus originates - reducing our intake generally has good impacts on general health, but specific connections between tinnitus and salt consumption are mostly confined to cases of Meniere's Disease.

If that isn't the diagnosed cause of someone's tinnitus, then moderation is a better option than just cutting things out of our diet without there being evidence of an effect.

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Gloomster

Just need to convince myself now Rosie .....

Thanks

I can get this too, loud shrieking one day (but not necessarily all day) and relatively quiet hiss the next day. On the loud shrieky days, there is a tendency to wonder how I can continue if this is maintained. I am now actually grateful that my T is variable and I get periods of respite. The downside is that variable T is harder to habituate to and you just have to ride the rollercoaster. I suspect that yesterday (as one of the worst days of your life) was a rare super-spike for you, which I think most of us get from time to time.

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Marydandy1 in reply to Fridays_Child_62

mine is like that, loud and hissy one day and relatively silent the next day. On a quiet day it builds up towards the evening to a hollow sound in one ear and clicky in the other. At that point I know there will be a noisy day the next day. Really hard to get used to as it’s so different every day.

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Gloomster

Actually Friday`s child I had a horrible time with T about 8 to 10 years ago and made pretty much a full recovery over about 2 years . It was still there but I barely registered it . While it was bothering me it did much the same thing as yours does

Recently it came back with a bang ( about 3 weeks ago ) and since then awful days have been anything but rare . I think I may have worked out what the problem has been , (hope so ) and today is a good day

The coming of T2 coincided with acquiring a new TV , which I very much liked as I could hear it really clearly ( I `m a bit deaf) . Not only was it considerably louder than the old one but I watched it a lot more and it must have had much much louder high frequencies. I think that brought on a massive spike - it can only be that , nothing else changed.

But then I avoided the TV completely, in terror . Unfortunately as replacement I watched things on my tablet with in-ear earphones for ages and played my guitar a lot more .

I think what I have done is experienced a spike and changed my behaviour in such a way as to prevent it settling down by actually increasing the volume of noise I have in my environment. So I am hopeful that if I address that things will settle down a bit

Fingers crossed

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Fridays_Child_62 in reply to Gloomster

In my experience, following a major ear/tinnitus crisis, the T can be pretty erratic for several weeks before settling down again, although does not necessarily settle down to as it was before. I suspect you are in this immediate aftermath at the moment.

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Gloomster in reply to Fridays_Child_62

Thanks so much for that, not having a great day and your thoughtful comment was encouraging . I really appreciate you taking the time and I can sense you know what a rotten place I am in right now.

After 8 clear years , this is so hard and a bit of hope for the future is very welcome.

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Graham-E

Hello and thanks for a really interesting post. I agree you can be really down on some days and sometimes better on others.

Thanks and hang in there.

reorosie profile image
reorosie

Your post has really given encouragement to us all to face the bad days , knowing that tomorrow may not be as bad, thankyou so much .

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thatsound

Hi there, can you think of anything in your office which may contribute to your T levels? Maybe too much stress that day or some other ergonomic issue? 😀

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Gloomster

Its not the location thatsound ..mine is currently doing what it did years ago when I first had a really bad time with it ,,I get 2 or 3 difficult days the odd shocker and one day off in a cycle of 3or 4 days

It doesn't matter where I am its just harder when you have to deal with people as well

Having a nasty day today actually . Last time over a period of about year it got easier to deal with almost without me noticing and after 2 years I noticed it really wasn't bothering me much at all. I am by no means always positive about it in fact I am very down at the moment.

In do my best but Oh god I just wish it had not come back .... but it did

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doglover1973 in reply to Gloomster

Hope you're feeling better today G. Keep going. You're going to get on top of T - like you did last time. Just take one day at a time.

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AldoArgentina

Hello! I had very loud T for years, with extremely crazy spikes with suicidal thoughts! I began to search frantically on the web because science does not give me any answer.

If you TRY ALL of this, I'm sure in two or three month you’ll be much better!!

1.- Mother tincture of Passinflower plant at night, but you don,t have to take medicine for sleep! 

2.- Magnesium L-Threonate (only this Magnesium works well with T.) in the morning and five hours before sleep.

3.- GABA with Gingko Biloba and L-Theanine before breakfast.

4.- Control your blood pressure and detects if you snore or have cervical problems.

5.- Protect your inner ear all the time you can!

Keep in touch and best wishes!!

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Tinnitus2709

Yeah its hard when that happens, you think its never going to end them it calms down. Hard to talk to yourself and remind yourself that "itll ne ok in the morning " stay strong my friend.

Spot on Gloomster in the throes of a tinnitus spike it feels unbearable but when it subsides it is such a relief. I accept the ups and downs now but it has probaby taken me a year to improve my mental reaction to tinnitus. It can be a vicious cycle if we let it. Thanks for sharing. Take care. x

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Gloomster

Thanks Fuzzy

Thats what I try to cling to .. in a years time it will be bothering me a lot less I just cant help feeling so angry that my life has been hi jacked by the whole thing

Not very helpful I know but I cant help really resenting that it happened to me ...why me ?

Stupid I know but its early days for T2

Of course. It is understandable. I've had a lot of anger at times as well. I think we've all gone through a spectrum of emotions on here. For me the anger often refuses to go away while I'm working through things! I've been on here on many occasions while feeling overwhelmed. It is a great help. Cheers x

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