I don't know why I have not changed in any way, yep a little more pain but that is to be expected, O yes my friend her grand-niece age 15 unfortunately passed last wk that horrid thing Cancer in her blood, I don't know what type, it really doesn't matter just so young and her whole life in front of her.... I am sorry I really wish I had something good or funny to say I really should not have put this burden on any of you but I have no one to tell, no one to shake my head with and say what a waste. I am so so selfish sorry guys again, tomorrow I hope I will be able to post again when my positivity returns and gives me a kick up the ---- !!! good evening to you all.