Have I gone completely mad

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Went to see new GP again as she could not handle to many things last time .

Daughter anti social diabetic polycystic overies fatty liver is 32yrs old also ADHD not alike at all as in pressure cooker went off in GP office as she said the ct I had done showed no cirrhosis I then said so I don't have fatty infiltation increased threw out and a lesion on liver and the first time st new hospital I came to as I was moving told me then daughter I have liver deases I been told face to face by GP n old area who read every record of the day I stopped drinking now there question me on the alchole abuse and she said to daughter I will refer her to mental health to late I've lost the plot me daughter said she can't take no more and will end up killing me and I said and I will end up doing same on that she said I'm on to many tablets I jumped in with I'm refusing pain killers I'm refusing the anti nut case one as I was getting worse feelings of wat is the point I've moved me life ain't never going to change I'm begging for them to listen read the cell path reports of the hospital that found the brain menningimia took me womb really quick as of HPV 16/52 crushed biopsys has the cells gone to me other organs have so much to keep begging it's like I'm getting repeating don't no eats going on can't go hospital feel I'm mad but not mad enough to get help or be to late like me hip they nearly killed me as in recovery 16hours blood transfusion pals even come up to ward I feel bad now as your all I'll I'm frightened that my body is deteriating I cannot come on here and worry everyone if I have to step up and do more I will I was told that if I'd have carried on drinking I would be dead .so out of all confusion she said oh I send your mum just to ease her mind so I'm being sent there not ill. Then the mental health will say it's to complex case phone talking therapys I've been refused every help as its to complex also what about old GP was calling in mdt so nothing has changed I cannot leave this bedroom I've been looking at the walls sine Friday making out I'm asleep avoiding noise me daughter frozen in fear not of me daughter of me as I am not being heard what do I do get arrested to get help yes I've done that public disorder no help I'm tired of begging I'm not waiting on referrals I'm not asking anymore I need to be in somewhere GP I thought she was trying find a panic button