Update: My husband passed away 2 weeks ago from alcoholic liver disease. He battled so very much but of course this disease won in the end.
I'm so sad for him, our children and the rest of his family. I'm particularly sorry for what he had to go through.
It feels like we've all lived through a nightmare for about a year now watching this strong man become weak and totally dependent on others for even the most basic care. It was utterly depressing and heart breaking to watch. I only hope he wasn't aware of what was happening. I definitely would not wish him back to suffer.
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So sorry for you and your families loss x it is an awful disease to watch someone deteriorate from I know before I got my transplant the last few months I wasn't aware of how poorly I was and I was in hospital for 3 months prior begging to go home because I kept telling them how great I felt even though I was a walking skeleton. I hope that just gives you an iota of ease that he most probably wasn't aware of what was happening xx r.i.p
so sorry for your loss..hopefully the peace he needed has now been found.
When my partner died from an overdose I felt like an angel with a broken wing had finally been healed.
It's sad, but sometimes the best way to let go is to know that whatever is next will bring peace. Our disease is terrible and many of the luckiest people are the ones who die fairly quickly rather than living in agony for many years.
I'm sure many might disagree, but I can tell you, as an alcoholic myself, I have seen my own family suffer terribly and still do while they are waiting for me to get another tx. I really hate that for them. They suffered enough whuke I still drank.
be blessed, and know that all is as it should be, even though we may not understand,
I mean that I believe life is, if you will, like a chess game. We may only be able to see the pieces or moves right in front of us. We cannot see the entire board, and how one move cannot affect the game or strategy as a whole.
I also like to think we also are all like points of light in the night sky..a web of lights, everything connected as a whole.
Life I believe is a series of moves, lessons and patterns. Everything has cause and effect.
So while I may not understand everything that is happening, as long as I am keeping my side of the street clean, and caring for those around me, then all is as it should be. Acceptance is the key..that along with the courage to change things that are harming self or others.
Sorry if I am being too philosophical. I find it helps me to feel connected and can bring me peace if I let it.
Hi, I am so sad reading your post, it brought back memories of my hubby, though his suffering, as far as we knew, was only 6 weeks, watching your lived ones life pass away is so hard. Im thinking of youand yours as I type, bless you all.
As my friend said to me, life is horrible when you lose someone, everything around you carries on like nothing has changed, yet for you, the world is spinning on a different axis.
Please take things slowly, one step at a time. Try not to feel guilty if you find something funny, try to remember all the things you have because you met your partner and cherish them.
I hope you are OK financially losing a partner is hard enough without money worries.
Please ask for help, people dont often know how to help - do you need help dusting/vacuuming etc. My house was left pretty much untouched for a month - it was so nice to get it sparkling again with help from my friends and light hearted as we chatted and caught up - well they gave me all the catch ups...
Sending you strength and love to help you all through the hardest of experiences. 💕💕💕
Thanks for all your good wishes. Life moves on but in a different way. I feel very sad for all that my husband will miss out on, we have 3 children who will not now have a dad to guide them through life. I feel this responsility on my shoulders now. I feel sorry for the slow horrible death that my husband had although I feel he may not have been aware, here's hoping.
I feel that maybe I could have done more, I also feel had I not left him maybe he wouldn't have drank as much, but he drank for all our marriage and I realise I'm not responsible for his actions. I have to tell myself that. With all this comes lots of guilt for the people left behind.
I hope he's at peace now and I realy believe he is
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End stage liver disease 
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