Iam on the list for transplant due to hypertension and clots around my liver - I had BA from birth so at 31 did ok but at the moment I'm really struggling.
My partner is 5 months pregnant 🤰and I can't seem to muster the energy or health to be of any use. I can't seem to sustain working -im up and down like a yoyo and I'm only doing 3 hours a day when I make it in. Currently I'm on stat sick pay so I don't get any extra pay unless I get to work.
I feel rubbish not just physically but as a bloke, I have a 26cm spleen which also helps making me protrude from my abdomen and I'm a Murkey parley yellow colour more often than not.
I just feel useless - I've not a lot of support other than my family and on occasion out of frustration use them as an emotional punch bag.
I don't know what to do -