So here I am, It's 23.52 and apart from replying to messages I haven't been able to do much else. The last 48hrs or more have been an emotional roller-coaster to say the least.
Where to start? If you read my previous post you will know my dad is in Stage 4 of COPD. I'm what you would call a part time carer for him to try and take some of the pressure off my Mum.
Wednesday 29th July around 3.30am:
I wake to the sound of my Father having what i thought was a panic attack and shouting "someone help me please?, why has he not rang the alarm? Do I disturb Mum or not? No, I make my way downstairs to find my Dad on his commode. His looking at me but his stare is vacant, like he is looking right through me. I walk up to him softly tell him "I'm here Dad, what you doing sat there?" No reply. I ask again but his breathing is so out of control he cant say a word. I spin him on the commode to face me so I can try go through the normal routine of battling his panic attacks (please read A morning in the life of a part time carer) Its not working. He just can't seem to concentrate and he is fighting for air and I've tried everything, Nebs, rubbing and patting his back, breathing techniques but nothing is changing. I can see its taking its toll on Dad, his body is slumped, his eyes are saying help me.
This is nothing out of the unusual for me. The best thing to do is remain calm because if you panic it will make them panic and things could be a whole lot worse. You see Dad has been in and out of hospital more times than I can count. The most recent was because he had Pneumonia, Stage 4 of COPD and that do not mix well.
So at this point I've spent a good 30 mins trying my best but its no good. His temp is a little higher than I like it to be. I press the alarm to get Mum up and pick up the phone, I dial 999.
Upon Mum making her way down the stairs the Ambulance arrives, dogs are going crazy, Mum half asleep and Dad is completely oblivious to anything around him. I've been here before, this is deja vu.
The questioning, ECG, nebulizer, measuring the oxygen in his blood, taking his temperature. His results are alarming 72% oxygen in his blood, his blood sugar levels are low, blood pressure higher that it should be and and ECG reading that is "slightly abnormal" according to Dan(ambulance man) "but nothing to worry about but I think we need to take you in Chas"
Now at this point my mind set is everything will be okay, it always has been. Mum will go to the hospital with him. They will do everything they can to bring his oxygen levels up etc etc. Remember deja vu. I will wake up, give my Mum a call and go to work and keep a close check on things throughout the day!!!!!
I wake to what I think is my alarm, no its not....My sister "Katie" She said "Dads been taken straight to resuscitation, you need to get here now". At that precise moment my whole world came crashing down and a million memories flashed before my eyes and a million things that i never got to say to him came to the forefront. You see Dad decided he doesn't want to be resuscitated in 2014, he signed a document that we have to hand to ambulance staff. It was a tough decision for him to make but he knows what he wants.
To cut a long story short, Dan the ambulance man got it all a little bit wrong, nothing abnormal with Dads ECG. Blue lights to hospital and straight to resus wasn't necessary according to Dr Carter. He apologised for the distress it had caused. Distress?? That word doesn't even come close to what we were feeling as a family. Dr Carter said that they have managed to increase Dads oxygen levels, done a X-ray and putting some fluids into his body and have made him very stable however he has chest infection. That explains it!!!
Dad finally managed to come home that same day as the doctor said no point keeping him in as we can do at home what we are doing for him here. Needless to say I didn't leave his side all day and slept on the sofa Wednesday night just to make sure every need was catered for. I'm currently sat with him now telling him what I'm doing and he said his proud of me for being so open about it and helping and sharing our experiences with others.
I'm not sure when my next post will be as I'm taking a few days off to get some much needed R&R with my boyfriend and leaving Dad in the capable hands of my Mother and Sister who I've hand written instructions on what to do in different scenarios, because dad said that no one can calm him like me.
Anyway it 1.55 and I've got to up in 4hrs to start another day.
Take care all