So am having one of those days where everything seems overwhelming. Maybe it's because it's new years day, I don't know. But they say getting it out helps so that's what I am going to do. At this minute in time I want to just scream as loud as I can and stomp my feet (have a tantrum really 😄😄). For the past 3 years I have struggled with heart issues, had numerous hospital stays, culminating in me having mitral valve replacement in November. Unfortunately about 10 days later I had an emergency pacemaker fitted. It doesn't stop there, as it's been a bumpy ride since I came home (I got an infection in one of my wounds, my INR has been on a bit of a rollercoaster ride and even a visit to the Resus dept in A&E via ambulance with racing heart rate). So it has knocked me for six when I found out yesterday that I now have an overactive thyroid (quite possibly from medication I am on - Amiodarone). So yet another avenue to go down. I have been put on a low dose of medication (carbimazole) while waiting for an urgent appt at hospital, but of course that medication could have knock on affect my Warfarin so yet another thing to fill me with worry. And to someone with a history of anxiety already - not good 😕. Now I want to state here that the support I have had from the NHS has been brilliant and I am thankful for that. This is just an emotional outfall. I also feel the knock on effect this has in my family who have been beyond supportive and I hate that I am putting this through this (though I know that is part of life). Anyway, that's my story so far and yes, I think it does feel better to “vent” a bit. So anyone who reads this, thank you. I know my story is not unique and I know that are a lot worse stories out there and to those people I send my thoughts and well wishes.
Take care all and I truly do wish you all a happy new year
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As far as your thyroid goes, there’s a forum here on health Unlocked. Thyroid UK. You may find something useful there.
But on the other hand it might be best to relax, enjoy a little walk outside (what, in this weather???????) have a chat with your family who, as you already know, want to support you.
One of those days I have every day and I could scream so I know how you are feeling and sometimes it just feels like it is one thing after another and yes very overwhelming
As we were going into the New Year I was so miserable thinking well it is just going to be the same as the last one not positive thinking I know but is how I felt so how you feel even though yes people are going through worse you can only feel your own pain and so that feels the worse as you are having to deal and try and cope with it
My thyroid started going a bit all over the place at one stage but then it seems to be ok now and instead my sugars went up and now I am diabetic and as much as I have tried I cannot reverse it so more meds and feels like I just don't want to or cant deal with all this but even if we limp along somehow we do and you will to
I have always suffered with severe anxiety and so these health issues really do not mix with anxiety at all and yes we can feel guilty and especially how it could be affecting our family but we did not ask for this and if it was a family member suffering we would be there supporting them so try not to feel guilty as this will just make you feel worse turn it around and think how lucky you are you have family that care so much and are there even if they don't understand but trying to support you they are doing it because they love you and love is unconditional
Have a tantrum if you want , a good scream with it get it all out your system some times that really helps
You have been through a lot and still have some things to face but as you have been you have got this you will do it a day at a time and if you need to talk we are here so you can get it all out we may not have all the answers but we know how to listen
Just having someone sit and listen and sympathise with you helps rather than them giving advice and telling you what to do!
A few weeks back I had people butting in and I put them in their place and told them how when I feel I need help I will ask myself and that I'm not a helpless child who needs to be spoon fed and they backed off then!
When I worked at the hospital pharmacy every week I was there there was always someone who was upset and crying!
One day I had seen a girl crying and had said to my friends not another one upset and how it was beyond a joke how many I had comforted who had been visibly upset there so I went to see her to see if she was OK and was there anything I could do for her and we had a chat which she said had helped just having me sit and listen and sympathise!
I went to the management and said how I was extremely concerned with the amount of staff there I had comforted because they were visibly upset and all they did was laugh and fobbed me off with excuses when I said about how I reckoned there were bullies in the department!
I find it extremely rewarding when I get told that I have helped to improve someone else's life!
Nowadays I walk past the pharmacy with my head held high and in there there's a lot of new faces I don't recognise which says a lot about them rather than me and their poor management!
The lady who started the same time I did left the month after I did and I feel I made the right choice in leaving!
This morning I saw a colleague from that scabby care home who remembered me and she said I had made the right decision in leaving after I got shouted at for no reason there and how the woman who did that is a horrible person and that was no reflection on me personally which was nice to hear!
This morning it has been a walk in the park and job applications as well.
On Monday at restart lots of other people hadn't turned up and hadn't rung to let them know and I had gone to them without complaint and they enrolled me on some courses for later on in the month and there were lots of people getting told off on the phone for not having turned up as booked!
As long as I fulfil my end of the bargain in regard to booked appointments then if they are late or don't show up there's nothing I can do about it and as long as I do what I have promised there's no point me getting upset over who shows up and who doesn't!
We're here to be ranted to, as we have almost all had our own rants and appreciated the support. Sometimes it's just one damned thing after another isn't it.
I hope things improve for you. I'm glad you feel well supported.
It's does you could to have a rant if you didn't vent how you are feeling it will make you feel worse . That's the great thing about this forum you can say how you are feeling and get help no judgements .
My husband died in 2004 aged 47. But have talked everyday to him out loud . I have swore at him , blamed him for dieing , said this wouldn't have happened if you had been here , but also just talked and tell him I love him . But I always feel better .
You say you could scream then scream . I have screamed and shouted and hit a pillow because of grief.
I have a rare hereditary neurological condition as well as having PAF and born with a small hole in the side of my heart.
My neurological condition causes what is called a startle reflex. Just means if we get startled can be a loud noise , flashing lights , gust of wind anything unexpected. Plus a whole host of physical problems and effects our cognitive function. We are clever just means having to read things or have things repeated to remember information.
Apart from screaming at my husband I am not a screamer. But this happened to me the other day . I can laugh about it now but it upset me thankfully I have my HPX group I can talk to via posts .
I was watching my soup heat in the microwave and heard a loud bang and I screamed and fell across my worktop my limbs all stiffened and couldn't move until they loosen up. Looked around and it was the ladle had fallen out of the utensil holder into the empty washing up bowl . But it had frightened me. I know how ridiculous this sounds . But I couldn't stop shaking . But my group where great and felt better.
Days later I can laugh at how ridiculous it was . So talking about how you feel does you good especially to people who understand and have weird things happened to them and getting your feelings written down gets them out of your head.
You have an awful lot to cope with so rant away . I hope you have someone in your life you can talk to in person .
It is hardly surprising you are overwhelmed and need to rant. It’s one of those occasions when someone might want to shout out ‘why me and what more do you want to throw at me’. So rant away. Better out than in.
I’ve had one thing after another since around 2018!! Husband has to listen to me going on. If it’s not bad enough getting all sorts of health issues without suffering bad medical practices, treatment and discrimination to boot! I’ve always suffered anxiety, long history, managed to cope until all these things started happening and now all I do is cry🥲
Lovely to have family that really care. I feel I’ve served my purpose with sister & brother and they’ve not contacted me in months, yes I know they hade their own ‘stuff’ but I’ve always been the elder caring sister 🤷🏼♀️
Have a good vent, and let it all out. Do the "Why me?", "Nobody cares" and "It's alright for you". I have been there. A lot of us have. Living life from one hospital appointment, operation, blood test, or scan to the next does wear you down but, it is what it is. No matter what help and support you get, when its 03:00, you can't sleep, and you feel really wretched, it seems like the end of the world. Then dawn comes. A bright new day and now, a new year as well. We carry on - because that is what we do.
Morning, Knavesmire - and I do hope you're having a better day today. I think it does all of us good to have a good rant when we're having one of those days and there's no denying - we ALL have them ☺️ and this site is brilliant for giving us the opportunity to do it!
After a very successful triple bypass in 2022 and a few medications tweaks and blips along the recovery route, I'm also currently being tested for thyroid issues - no results as yet, but there we go - something else to look forward to!
Wishing you the Happiest and Healthiest of New Years and thank you for sharing your 'one of those days' with everyone - it helps to know we're not alone in having them! 🤣😂
If you go to You Tube and put "Tom Carradine - Well this is ...." into to the search bar you'll come up with a funny video of a song that always makes me laugh when I'm having a rotten day. It's a bit rude, so I don't want to post the video itself. You might find the sentiments cheer you up!
hello there, I hear you 😁 Always good to vent… Maybe the overactive thyroid diagnosis is a blessing (sort of) and having that corrected will help your heart function?🙏🙏
New Year’s Day is daunting for a lot of people including me but it’s just another day really and it’s passed! 🙏😁 I hope you’re feeling better about everything today? Remember, take one day at a time. Wishing you well.
Hi Knavesmire27 - sorry to hear all you are going through. It is great to vent and this is such a good place to do it as we all have similar issues. We are always here for you. I too suffer from anxiety so I really feel for you. Heart issues and anxiety are not a great combination! Try to take care of yourself - great that you are going out for walks - it is a beautiful day out there today although very cold! As Kalim65 says please take it one day at a time. Happy New Year
There's nothing quite like a good old rant. So hoping you feel better now😉 and wishing you a New Year that's a little less stressful. Remember your not alone.🤗
so sorry you have been having such a bad time, we all on this site understand what your feeling and a lot of us have a similar story but you must not give up you have a lovely family to fight for and this is the start of a new year . Wishing you good luck and good health
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