mental state

[september1990]

its been over 2 years since my ablation that corrected my congenital birth defect that made my heart beat radically (Wolff Parkinson White Syndrome). my mental state has since been suffering. my brain is in constant fight or flight mode. i once was a happy, confident person who could get over hardships quite well. and now i’m the opposite. i dont know why this has happened. i dont even recognize myself. has anyone gone through something similar? any tips or advice would be really helpful. thank you.

[Hidden]

yes it is hard the mental issues that come with knowing you have a problem. I for one is struggling. The problem that comes with this mental struggle is that you forget who you once where and feel that you will never be that person again. Your body naturally goes into fight or flight mode because it has a threat. But with me I have struggled with anxiety for many years or even all my life. But I never really understood it. I suppose I still don't. The hardest part for me is the loss of confidence. I am currently seeing a therapist to try to move forward. Some days are good some are bad. Will I come out of this? I don't know. The waiting for answers is the worst bit. Plus having to push oneself to motivate and move forward. Worrying that my heart has a problem and will let me down. Even though it is congenital and has got me this far, now I know I have a problem makes it harder. But that's what I am trying to do small steps. Thats what we agreed at my last therapy session. So I will report back that I managed to do stuff this weekend. But what will my discussion be next time. Because I still feel sorry for myself and wish I did not know anything about my issue. Blissfully ploding along in life. This might not be what you want to hear. But remember you are not alone. May feel like it, but you are not.. I wish I had an answer. But it is a process that may require a new normal. I hope you find an answer to you question.

[ALFIE1963 in reply to Hidden]

listen to the mental health stories so often and yes from my opinion and perception is seeing a Therapist is a good way mentally and emotionally for support

Regards

Wayne Walker counsellorI

[Hidden in reply to ALFIE1963]

i agree that talking helps and therapist help. But the bottom line is the improvement has to come from within. So how do you get the best from the therapy sessions.? When your mind is in complete turmoil. How to get a negative into a positive. But being a negative person as iam it really is hard.

[ALFIE1963]

That from my experience this is were the structure is needed for the chaos to be rationalized and the importance of the counsellor client relationship Wayne

[Hidden in reply to ALFIE1963]

there is definite need for councilors . And to have a strong relationship with clients. But my main question is how do you change your own thought process. For long term gain.

you can talk and talk do and do. But as there is no magic wand how does the mind change. I suppose subtlety it does. But it is a hard process. Especially when living with a heart condition found out of the blue. Deep down you still worry and get anxiouse. It would not be human not to. But to control it and try to live a normal life as possible. It's hard. I know talking helps but do we end up having to see a councilor on a regular basis.

[ALFIE1963 in reply to Hidden]

from my personal experience it can really help to help with the stress and trauma

[Gible]

Hi I feel your pain. I had a stent fitted 4 years ago after being rushed into hospital with a 240bpm heart beat. I had to be brought back to life a couple of times before they took me to surgery with a blocked artery. Following this I had a year ok and then I got ill and started having what I thought was panic and anxiety attacks. I then took an anti depressant for a year which only mildly helped. I then had another episode this April and a heart beat of 240bpm and was rushed to hospital where I spent 3 and a half weeks and diagnosed with Myocarditis and had a 7 1/2 hour ablation. Since April I have suffered anxiety and depression and find it hard to live day to day. I also have social anxiety and I am scared to leave my flat. I am now going to try tablets again and also I have started CBT with Time talk. I hope that this will help me towards feeling I can have some sort of life again and wish you all the best as I know what your going through. Keep Strong