Feeling scared and sad

[Boysy]

Hi everyone,

I hope you all are doing fine. Sorry, sorry, if I didn’t answer all your replies. Thank you so much you all the comments. I really appreciate it. Feels good and comforting that you guys understand what is going on.

I have been in a quite low mood. I went to see the Cardiologist, face to face consultation, which is very hard to get with the today’s circumstances, and he told me that there isn’t anything else to do with my heart. I already have two stents and I still get some pain, short of breath, low blood pressure and very dizzy. I am 63 years old and I am also diabetic type 1. I have been diabetic for 35 years. Cardiologists said that I had the heart attack due to the diabetes. My arteries are quite blocked and hard, they had a hard time putting the stents in my heart so they are saying if they try to do more things in my heart, my heart can start bleeding and that will be the end for me. It is absolutely sad and you start thinking for how long I am going to live. To be honest I was shocked and at the moment when the doctor told me that I didn’t react. It has been now that I realised how do I keep going on with my life? You know what I trying to say. I am already taking lots of tablets, trying to cope with all the side effects as you all that had heart attacks know.

I a having a very hard time. I live with my husband. He pretends he isn’t worried but he is. We didn’t have any children. He takes care of me as much as possible but he has to work. With the Covid-19 situation everything is difficult specially for people like me that have many health issues.

I don’t know which is the way to go forward. I feel trapped, scared and sad.

I am living day by day but it is very difficult.

Thank you for reading this post.

[Telboi]

So sorry to hear your story Boysy. I take it they have ruled out graft surgery? Have you had a second independent opinion on this - it might be worthwhile, there is so much progress being made in this area all the time. It is great to hear your partner is taking care of you, nice to have support around you.

I wish you the best and hope you dings a solution to your plight, never give up, at the same time, whilst easier said than done, try to live every day to the max.

[Chappychap]

I appreciate that things might be looking bleak, but don't despair because there's still light at the end of this particular tunnel.

You may not have the option of surgery, but there are always life style improvements that can be made to improve both your life expectancy and your quality of life.

For example, are you eating the very best diet possible, are you keeping mobile and exercising right to the limits of your condition, do you have a few extra pounds that can be shed, etc, etc.

It also sounds like you have the greatest resource anyone can ever ask for; namely a caring partner who's committed to your wellbeing.

Good luck!

[AdamAdamant]

As a newbie here who also had some shock news I feel for you.

[Ianc2]

Low blood pressure and feeling dizzy often go together. Do you take medicines that effect your blood pressure ? Do you drink plenty of water? Do you get the chance to go out and gently walk around in the green stuff , see the glut of acorns and the leaves falling, look up and see the mighty Oak trees that have stood for centuries?

Take a couple of walking poles if you can, to keep you stable. If you need a breather you can stop , lean on them , look wise and have a blow as you feel the wind in your face. Even if you don't go very far it will cheer you up as you enjoy the changing of the seasons. In the next fortnight the leaves will be changing colour into a show of gold and red, before the trees get rid of them to be able to stand against the winter storms. It is a great time to be outdoors if you can.

[Thanksnhs]

Hi I am sorry to read about the way you are feeling, at 58 I got diagnosed with dilated cardiomyopathy and heart failure, I had left it too late to seek medical advice, therefore meds wouldn't help much, and everything I read said might manage another five years, not what you really want to hear, even worse it's congenital and I have two sons, living alone I was miserable to say the least, I felt like yourself, what's the point!, but there was light at the end of the tunnel, my cardiology department has a resident psychologist who is available at every clinic, I always thought it would be embarrassing to seek help but once again I was completely wrong, he was and still is really helpful, I have only seen him a few times but it made a huge difference, I wish I had spoke to him sooner, mabe your hospital has the same help available, wind the clock on four years, I have just had a transplant, my only option, and at the moment things with my new heart are going well, lots of side effects from the drugs but they should diminish as they get adjusted, I have even got a bucket list to look forward to, so from thinking there was not a lot of hope the corner was turned and the help was there and it sounds like you have a lovely husband to help take care char