Imposter Syndrome in the morning

[HectorsDad]

My daily routine- sound familiar?

First thing: I feel good. Bit uncomfortable, but nothing much. Why am I not working? I could do that DIY job at least! I’ll try driving this morning, then do the ironing. Big guilt trip because I’m letting everyone down and clearly THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH ME. Why am I making such a fuss? Am I just imagining it? Huge guilt trip........ one of the worst feelings of the day. My wife is checking all the things she’s got to do, that I should be doing.

Coffee time: ah, better sit down I’ve had a shower and read the news and not feeling too good. Oww!

Lunch: I’ll cook! ( stands up) There’s a bag of salad and some tinned fish, that’ll do.

2 PM: I’ll just watch Escape to the country first ( checks GTN and phone are nearby, cause it’s really hurting again and I HAVEN’T DONE ANYTHING). Zzzzzzzzz

? Why are they in Norwich, I thought they wanted to move to Cornwall? And why are they buying antiques? Hang on, what’s the time...........

Not looking for advice, just letting off steam! I would kick the dog, but he ways five stone so it hurts (joking, actually he thinks he’s my career, and can tell my BP by sniffing).

MRI next week, so all will start to make sense.

The only that doesn’t seem to accept my illness is me.