I'm 41, and new I was ill as the summer didn't seem that warm to me, I was waking up in the night completely out of breath, getting a lot of chest pain and other issues
However, my GP insisted it was all in my head and refused to do any tests or make any referrals. According to him, there was nothing wrong with me apart from mild anxiety.
Then last month I collapsed and was admitted to hospital. It was found that my heart was twice as big as normal and my aortic valve three times as big. My resting heartbeat was 180. There was severe damage to my left ventricle and my aortic valve could burst at any moment, plus there was an irregular heartbeat.
So much for nothing wrong with me.
Anyway, they at first were talking about an operation but a range of surgeons from several hospitals said it was too dangerous to operate. If they opened me up, there was a 70 - 80% chance that I would die on the table.
They have told me to take pills, get home help, give up any hope of ever working again and do very, very little. No swimming anymore. No booze. No walking further than the end of my road.
My life expectancy is "might be 6 weeks, 6 months, 6 years, we just don't know".
I'm 41 and had no idea I had any heart problems. Apparently I will have been ill since my teens or early 20s at the latest, so I suppose I just got used to being ill.
Sometimes I'm just numb. Sometimes absolutely furious. Sometimes full of self-pity. Often just totally terrified.
Any advice? Please?
I'm sorry for "War and Peace" but I don't want people telling me it can all be sorted with a by-pass. It can't.
Thanks