Scared but determined !!!

[Sarg69]

I have a hospital appointment today but no one to come with me, my husband has to work, my daughter has deadlines at uni and my son has college. It shouldn’t be a problem but it’s the first time I’ve had to leave the house on my own post cardiac arrest and I’m petrified.😫😫 I used to be such an active independant women!!!!🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️ My daughter said “well you have to do it sometime and we can’t keep putting things off to take you everywhere. “ she’s right but I didn’t sleep well last night, but I’m determined to do it just to prove a point to my family. In all fairness she did ring this morning to ask if I wanted her to come and take me, but the stubborn streak in me said no I’ll be fine. Which I’m sure I will be, I have my ICD for insurance and I need to try and regain my confidence. I’m just not sure if this is normal to feel like this or am I being irrational ?????

[Fredders]

Totally normal to feel scared the first time. You've just been through a frightening experience and your confidence is bound to be knocked. I had an AVR and subsequently a pacemaker fitted a few weeks ago and although I've been out with my husband or a friend, on Tuesday I had to walk to my GP on my own. I was very apprehensive and a bit scared incase I couldn't make it - it's only a 15 minute walk. I was fine and had to do a repeat performance the following day for the anticoagulation clinic. Sit quietly before you set off, take a few slow, deep breaths to calm yourself and do the same breathing technique every time you feel yourself getting anxious.

I'm sure once you've done it the first time you'll wonder why you were so worried. Just give yourself plenty of time so you don't have to worry about being late.

Good luck and hope the appointment goes okay.

Wendy

[laura_dropstitch Heart Star]

Can completely understand your apprehension, I was the same after I had my ICD fitted. Your daughter is right, you do have to do it some time, might as well be today. I found it helped (psychologically) if I stayed in areas with plenty of people around and updated at least someone I knew with where I was. It will get easier over time!

Hope the appointment goes well. x

[Mirador19]

Hi Sarg69, sorry to hear you are on your own today and I can understand your lack of Confidence. I am sure once you have done it you will feel so proud of yourself and will have proved a point not only to yourself but to your family and it will allow you to do more on your own again, as long as you follow your Doctors guidelines. Well done, let us know how you get on and good luck.

Joan x

[skid112 Heart Star]

Hi sarg69, yes it's scary but once done your confidence will zoom we are all willing you on

Good luck

Mark

[Shandypants]

Hi sarg69

I don’t think there is anything irrational about being worried about going out on your own, I was the same way and felt the same the first time I was in the house overnight by myself. Once you have done it though it feels great to regain even a bit of independence and confidence that you can do it and something isn’t going to happen. If you have already been I hope the appointment went well, if not good luck you will be fine.

Tania

[gal4God]

I hate hospital appointments and freck our about a week before and till I go bed that night the day of the appointment. I still don’t get the weird freck out after. So I’m just the same even though my step dad goes with me.

[Twobells]

Gosh it took me months to go out alone so well done you.x