My asthma has been to say the least difficult over the last year with numerous admissions etc, i have not been of pred since june of last year and am never below 30mg. i recently did the RBH difficult asthma protocal and am due to go back at the end of June for some more tests
recently i have had three admissions and two of them requiring CCU intervention, the most recent started as a cold and then went to saw respiratory nurse on the tuesday where to say the least she was quite cross saying that i was ignoring warning signs and leaving it to long before going to hospital, well to be honest i didnt feel that bad and just thought a course of antibiotics was on the cards anyway was finally discharged on monday and although am much better that i was and kind of back to the normal symptons that i have had continuasly, does anyway one else feel that they can not allways judge how bad things are getting?
since being discharged i have lost all my energy, i know you have to give it time but i am never very patient and feel that this is taking over my life. the fact i was also admitted to CCU and everyone look so terrified is really playing on my mind as well, i dont know why but it has really made me think how bad things were!
i have spoken to nurse at hospital today who is very supportive and a real life line but i feel like i am driving her crazy as it seems to be a continuous fight to keep things under control, i hate having to contact her because i get the feeling she is frustrated by whole situation.
well today it has all come to a head and have just sat and burst into tears for no reason, i am so fed up with this taking over so much of my life, i am tired where i dont sleep well, due to coughing etc, i feel like i am becoming a complete nuisance and always at doctors or hospital etc, i feel like i am having to rely on others all the time, i am trying to hold down a full time job but my sickness record is appauling, people say that i should give up work but i am determined not to, i just dont know what to do anymore to help things.
i am sorry that this is so depressing to read but i just needed to write it down, i am not expecting any replys and i am sure things will pick up soon, they definetly cant get any worse!! i am flying to Turkey on tuesday and am hoping the rest will be what i need.
thankyou for reading this and if anyone has any advice i would be grateful, i think i need somone toslap me around the face and tell me to pull my socks up and get on with it, i do know there are people out there much worse of than me!!