i am having to stay at home due to my asthma as it is now playing up big time i have been unable to see my niece and only get very stressed dad on phone who does not even know the time of day, but that is to be expected.all i got was now they have to dialysis her!! what the hell is going on? i do not have the information i need to understand the reason for dialysis, this has not happened before. during this time is anyone able to help me fully understand again the reasons for something like this happing and also how can i keep getting it across to a ward that know the family and still are not willing to give me info over the phone. i am so angry and worried but have my own health and two kids to care for as well what am i meant to do.she was amazing when i became unwell this year and i just want to help her like she has always me. am i being far to self absorbed? life is going off in far too many directions and i can not do anything about it everything is out of control and happing to fast..i feel like i am to blame as i have been ill and Holly-Anna has helped me. everything is being taken away and i cannot control the one thing i said i would do to her mum and that is to keep Anna safe.