So, as I slowly recover (officially I was clear of covid 7th Oct and was out of hospital on the 21st) I find the tasks I do gradually increases.
As you'll see from my previous posts, I tried playing some computer games, just for 30 minutes. I enjoyed this and it took my mind off things greatly, but after I do find I have to lie down for an hour as fatigue hits.
I also headed to my bedroom around 4.30pm as I felt fatigued after making a sandwich for my dinner.
Now yesterday was fairly busy, once a week I have to use a vaginal dilator for 30 minutes and this is quite an intensive task. I cannot get away from this task, it has to be done for medical reasons.
Other things that day were feeding the cat and washing a few dishes, getting dressed, and making lunch. Over the day there are probably 4 hours surfing the internet and when I rest for a few hours, I listen to an audio book.
I do have a busy mind though, that unless its distracted, can overthink and cause anxiety!!
That being said, these videos for exersise, i'm like, if I did these, i'd be exhausted?? Or would I?
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Seems daunting.
Think is, I'm approaching a month of recovery, and the doctor in the hospital seemed to think I'd be back at work in a month.
I feel far from going back to work!
I understand that the recovery curve picks up over time, and the fatigue attacks no longer come with anxiety, which makes them manageable, I just lie down and listen to Thunderstorm sounds on spotify which I find relaxing.
But, for normal pacing, and the resting required, its the rests that get me. Sometimes I can get engrossed in an audio book and relax. But many times my busy analytical mind wanders and wants to think.
I did think about getting a book on mindfulness!
Essentially, I get bored easily, and am finding recovery very tough. How do I fill the time and not exhaust myself!?
Do we have others here with the same analytical minds that want to understand everything? Mine never switches off.
I had a good nights sleep, and feel a bit drained this morning, although first thing I often do, but then pick up.
I just hope i've not exhaused myself these last few days of feeling good, as the tasks I've done are mostly essential ones.
PS I have looked at the spoon theory
I Woke up today feeling washed out and a bit down if I'm honest. How can I exercise if I get exhausted doing basic tasks to just exist? Do I cut down computer time? I'd go mad if I had to sit and do nothing but listen to music, I just can't do that.