ok, so today i saw the ent ear nose throat specialist. he thinks i have wegener's disease, a type of vasculitis. that is when my body attacks it's own blood, and therefore different organs. in this case, nose, lungs, throat, kidneys. for me anyway. the fact that i have already had kidney failure for unkown reasons means it is already ver advanced and was not diagnosed for quite a while.
so i have at best max 5 years to live, at worst max 4 months.
sorry, just a rant. am scared. going to have a biopsy of the nose, they say it hurts...