When puerperal psychosis vision become a scary reality........ How to become healthy again?

[CindyAmour]

Since the birth of my son in 2015, my life turned upside, down. I have suffered from puerperal psychosis. and the interpretation of the "visions or hallucinations" that I had, have became my life experienced.

But this is extremely fearful, because it was related to my child sexual abuse, mental health and financial issue towards myself... And losing my son for good.

I also understand that I may easer be a coercive control woman, or been a victim from it which resulting in having those symptoms. I still very much doubt myself. Meanwhile, I have been told that I suffer from c - ptsd and Stockholm syndrome, but those never been in a report or diagnosis.

Since that experience of change of vision, voices, and smell. I have felt some changes in my brains.

I often feel disconnected, and as if my brain was spinning, which is very unpleasant. I really don't know what triggers those feelings. I can notice when I am in the state and it can last for a week on and off. I often feel like a foggy mind, as if it was cloudy.

I have also experienced a feeling of cool liquid moving in my brain, as if it was water.

On a different occasion, I have felt a very strong feeling of heat above my head and left foot. This sensation felt as if it was the heat when I could put my hand close to my cheek, which generate heat, but far more powerful.

My main concern is the spinning sensation and leaving a fearful vision, that I couldn't stop so far.

I am French and been leaving in London for the past 10 years.

I am waiting to do a brain EEG scan, to check if I suffer from mental health issue…

Meanwhile, I have lost my son custody on the final hearing on the 19 &20TH April 2021, where I have lost my son for at least another year, and the allegations about abuse has been twisted and used against me, to say that I emotionally abuse my son.

I will also refer myself to Professor Evan Stark and Dr Steeve Miller which to my understanding explains very much what I have been facing regarding my situation with my son.

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[Naomi_at_app Volunteer]

Hi dear CindyAmour

I've left a longer reply to your post introducing yourself and sharing your experience. However, I wondered from what you describe if some of the 'brain fog' experiences you are describing in this post might be due to 'dissociation' which is a common reaction to trauma.

Mind have an explanation of dissociation here

mind.org.uk/information-sup...

There are free resources to download for trauma survivors here (sign-up for email newsletter required) carolynspring.com/free-down...

Warmly

Naomi