Today exactly one year ago I was sectioned in the psychiatry hospital, leaving a 6 weeks old baby at home with my husband. We went through hell, me suffering the illness and my husband seeing me suffer and wondering if he would ever recover his wife. It hit me in the full corona lockdown, so my parents were not able to travel from abroad to visit me and they also suffered a lot. After 6 weeks in the psychiatry hospital and a couple of changes in my treatment, I was stable (not dangerous to myself or anybody) so they released me with medication (Olanzapine). Coming back home was also a struggle, I felt like I was not myself and I was completely lost. Also, the bond with my baby was not really there and I felt like a robot, doing what I had to do but without really feeling it. I was tappering down Olanzapine for the next 6 months as I was feeling better over the time. Then after quiting Olanzapine, a strange mixture of depression/anxiety hit me. I went through it without medication as I didnt really want to start another drug and I was feeling down for around 2/3 months. After that, I am not sure why or how, but my mood started to lift and I was able to go back to normal life. I started working part time, I started to feel very close to my baby and I started to feel the joy of having him in my life, I started to laugh and my sense of humor was back. Today after one exact year, I can say that I feel myself again. I am sometimes scared that something like this will ever happen again, so we have decided not to try for another baby which makes me sad, but we think its the best decision for us. I am still struggling to find my way in life and many days feel a bit grey, but I am extremely thankful that I have recovered and I am back home, having a normal life with my family. And I am also thankful with all of you, who read my posts and gave me hope when I was not feeling good. Therefore I wanted to share my story with you and wanted to give you hope that we can go back to have a normal life after such a debilitating disease. I send you all a big hug and lots of strength!