Depression.

[Poulson]

Dear Ladies.

I was hospitalised again not last Christmas, the Christmas before. That was because I had come off my medication. Since then I have been suffering from terrible depression and nightmares. I am reading books on narcissistic mothers, as my mother is one. I have suffered PPP after my daughter was born 30 years ago and I have had many relapses over my life. This is usually due to remembering anniversaries, birthdays and Christmas and Christenings. I have nearly finished my story.

I have got to wait for my appointment with psychiatrist.

I will keep you posted.

[Ellie_at_APP Partner]

Hi Poulson

It's good to read your update.

It's great you've nearly finished writing your story. I find writing really therapeutic.

I hope that your next appointment with your psychiatrist will be helpful.

Take care,

Ellie

[mikefff]

Hi good luck with your appointment your doing great. All the best.

[Poulson in reply to mikefff]

Dear mikeff.

I have been looking at my baby photos again and getting a lot of comfort from them. I have been dreaming about my abusive ex-husband again. In the dream he was dragging my son by the arm and I had to intervene yet again.

I have got my results back for my TMAs with The Open University. In D240 I got 50%. The pass rate is 40%. I am on track to pass that module.

For module SDK228 I only got 17%, as I had missed part 2 to the question, which was a 1000 word essay. If I had completed it I would have got a pass. I am so disappointed in myself.

I am going to visit my baby granddaughter this week. I bought her a onesie a few weeks ago. She grabbed it and said, "It's amazing." She is adorable. She is only 2.

I have had some good news. My son is getting married in 2022. I have asked if I am invited with all the upset that is in the family now I have spoken out about the abuse. He said yes.

I will keep you posted as to how the case goes.