I don't understand why I cannot get a straight answer as to what happened to me. How is there not more funding for further research into this phenomenon? It is unbelievable to me that not only do the doctors make it difficult to be admitted as an inpatient, but there is a general lack of resources, everywhere, for mothers who experience severe mental health episodes. It legitimately makes me sick to my stomach. I was turned away from the psych emergency FIVE...yes, five times, before they finally deemed me "severe" enough to be admitted. Upon being accepted as an inpatient, most of the others in the waiting room were teenagers, chatting, laughing and playing games. I was the only one in the back corner completely hysterical and in a real emergency.
SSRIs made it all worse for me, I told them after a month that Prozac was making it so unbearable I felt like I was going to drop dead any second and they scoffed at me, told me to do as I was told and keep taking it. This nearly got me killed. No one would listen to me, no one even wanted to help me. I was continuously sent home to die. Five times.
Upon full recovery, I sought to find answers as to what happened to my brain. Some said it was postpartum psychosis. Others said it was severe depression. So which was it? Why can no one give me a straight answer? No one seemed to have any answers, and had absolutely no idea what I had, and yet I was expected to put full trust in these people who were treating me, who at every turn, pointed me in the wrong direction and left me to my own devices.
What kind of a society is this? How is this acceptable treatment? I am repulsed by it. And sickened.
Has anyone here had postpartum psychosis without hallucenations?
I had: severe agitation, restlessness, feeling like I was in another reality (derealization), extreme internal anxiety, inability to sit still, insomnia, constant vomiting, pacing in circles wonder what the hell was happening to me.
Is this psychosis? Or "agitated depression" ?