Hello all you wonderful warriors 🙂
It has been a while since I have written, so just wanted to update you all.
I had ppp in 2014 after having my son & it was one of the most scary & traumatic things I have faced to date.
The last 4 years has been an amazing journey, full of twists & turns, tears & laughter. I am now in a place where I can hand on heart say that I am fully recovered from my ppp & the debilitating depression which followed in my recovery journey.
Life is good and my son is due to start school next September 😯!
I do remain watchful of my mental health & have to keep up my personal self care routine in order to stay well. This is something I have learned over the years & it is crucial for everyone, especially us ppp Mums.
Taking time to nurture myself has not come easy to me however, massages, receiving reiki, meditation, spending time in nature & eating healthy foods are all things I try to do to regulate mood.
I have recently celebrated my sons birthday and this has always been a double edged sword. Happiness for bringing him into this word & sadness & guilt for the traumatic illness which followed.
This year is different! This year I have found my silver lining. The future is bright and I recognise that ppp is just something I experienced, it is not part of me. Before now it has felt like I would never move past it fully & it would always be there, festering inside me like an unwanted visitor.
My family & I are about to embark on a new chapter! We have a preschooler in the house & I intend to embrace every moment & relish the present.
In the past few weeks I have started writing about my psychosis experience. The timing is right as I am far enough along my journey to remain healthy whilst writing, however, still close enough to retain some of the raw emotion needed to convey this experience.
I am employing the services of a counsellor whilst I undertake this process as I am aware of how many emotions this will throw up.
For anyone experiencing ppp at the moment, hang in there after the storm comes a rainbow 🌈 and you too will find your silver lining 🌥
Love & strength