Hi there, I almost died due to complications giving birth and it took a toll on me emotionally. I ended up on additive sleeping medications and that led to a downward spiral of fear and I ended up in a mental institute. It's been eight months and my symptoms have not improved. They want to hospitalize me again. I am very sensitive to medications and have tried all kinds and end up not being able to take them because of the side affects. My fear induced pychosis episodes are very scary. My mom has had to move in to take care of the children. I can't hold it even look at my baby and my three year old daughter tells me she is afraid of me. My heart is broken and I'm really afraid and discouraged.