For many years I have had issues with my body image, excessive exercise and periods of restriction or massive binges. I feel like I have always been obsessed with what I eat and terrified of gaining weight, its impacted my relationships and it causes me great anxiety when it comes to socialising and I have very little control over what I eat.
The past few weeks I realise this is no way to live and have sought support from my GP. I am not underweight and I worry my issues are not serious enough and I am not worth of help. This has been aggravated by my parents not understanding, I think they think I have suddenly clung to having disordered eating as a way to explain my low mood and irritability and tearfulness, not understanding they are all related. I have tried to explain to my mum the years of going upstairs and eating and hiding the food from them, but she still doesn't understand.
It's making me doubt myself, that this issues arent as all encompassing as I feel they are and that what I am dealing with is not real or I am exaggerating. Which then makes me feel embarrassed about seeking GP support. I read information and everything they describe feels like my experiences yet I am doubting myself and not trusting myself. I feel my family think I am attention seeking even though they have not said so much.
How do I know that what I feel is enough to be seeking sought without taking support away from those more in need.