hi everyone im suffering on anorexia binge and purge ... i now have the determine to try eating but i am so scare of refeeding again ..

[deonlyl]

can anyone tell me what to do ...cause currently my family hate me to the max cos i keep vomiting after i eat alot ..

my every day now is i will eat 3 packets of rice with alot of eggs meats vegs .... and i purge and den afternoon i will give myself starbuck drink llike green tea cream w non fat milk sugar level 2 w vanilla syrups . work 4 hours job with plain water a cup and i drinks lots of horlicks to maintain my energy and increase weight , i wanna be a normal person to start eating and i going to work full time job this thurs . i wanna try eat .. but im not sure what i can eat to not let myself uncomfortable and bloated ? what can i do to stop myself binging and currently i overdose laxatives . i have no one support . i need advice and encouragement, tell me what can i do ..currently i wont force myself to vomit all out will keep some food in stomach i feel irritated when food i keep in stomach rite now . what can i do to not have all this feeling ... hais

i know i am disgraced im useless ..

i been suffering 3 yrs plus im so sick and tired ..

but i couldnt do it ... i lost all my friend work and my freedom ...

[deonlyl]

Pls i hope to get sone advice

[StarB]

Hi there! This seems like it's going to be difficult to do alone! I've had treatment before but have slipped back into old habits and I'm trying atm to get better by Myself again... Make yourself a smoothie for breakfast! Start the day healthy they are great for getting nutrient and have no fat!

Try to keep eating every couple of hours.. I snack on dark chocolate, carrot sticks, apples... Beans on brown toast is good for lunch.. Again it's good fuel and low in fat! Dinner include loads of veg... I find I never want to throw up a healthy meal.. Brown rice is good and of course fish you need some sort of protein. Now this all sounds very easy but I know as well as you do how hard it is as I'm not saying I successfully manage this everyday but only you can change this so just take each day as it comes.. I wish you all the best of luck! I'm going through the same thing but we have to keep fighting.. Fault doesn't mean failure so don't give up!

[StarB]

Also allow yourself one day when you can eat what you want.. Treat yourself!

[deonlyl]

Hi , i tell u my rougly now , im binging one time a days , with loads of rice and meats vegs and can eat up to 3 packets . But now i manage to gained 6kg due to i drink loads of horlicks and . I vomit still but i keep some food down recently . I wanna try to eat and not vomit but i keep alone and no encourgement . I think is cos i keep eat at home w my habits of binge and purge so i cannot change ! Tell mi how ); hais i wanna try work full time eat outside at least a meal or maybe jus drink soups . Any solution to not make mi keep binge ! Im lost stress keep wanna cry

[deonlyl]

I don binge on junk foods i binge on loads of rice , vegs, meats like beef , oily meats chicken , eggs all those);

[StarB]

You need to be strong! Don't buy foods you know you're going to binge on.. Change your diet you are the only one who can change how you live. I advise you seek help as well though either a counsellor or speak to your doctor

[deonlyl]

See doc seen few yrs bk . It seen like no use. But now i when to doc again cos i wanna kick my eating and vomit to stop . Idk how to start . I feel so digusted by keep vomit and den drink alot alot of horlicks. I wanna cchange eating habits but how!!! Omg

[deonlyl]

If i eat at home i tend to eat like a monster so horrible