I was diagnosed 3.5 years ago and initially described the feeling as a creature that tries attacking different parts of the body...I had back pain, shin splint pain, difficulty swallowing, foot pains, hand pains, and the list goes on and on...
It's settled recently and the main issue is a burning sensation in my left knuckle and left chest...almost knocks me over/comes and goes and I am constantly tired...just feel worn out, with no interest in anything.
I work as a police officer, and as good as my boss's have been..bit by bit, I have lost my role, my uniform, am on half hours and feel now I have lost my dignity. I am office bound and doing very little and to be honest, can not get motivated or the energy to do more.
Was put forward for early pension but declined as it may not be permanent???
This has just compounded my embarrassment--I feel almost false/not believed/making it up..
I have always argued that I am not suffering anxiety, but just fed up of the constant pain.
I am now embarrassed to mention my fibro, I feel sad, tired, embarrassed to be at work (and carried by others--my output is zilch)---am scared I am starting to get depressed..(Had a few dark thoughts)
I have a lovely doctor, but she is a young Asian girl and I am just so embarrassed to see her again...i have always tried to say things are not that bad..
I have just been to the UCL fibro clinic--been prescribed sulfur and told to come back in three months..
Now told it may not be fibro as I have many symptoms but not sore pressure points??
Could be CFS??
Feel like I am going round in circles with no end in sight.
I have tried diet changes, loads of different meds--go to the gym and swim (nothing impactive cause it hurts)
What I wanted to know is--am I just being daft?
As a ex forces guy, I struggle to talk about this type of thing..
Just don't know where to turn next.