i am very excited to see if i can make a career out of graphic design, im so happy ive gotten good at it, i want to meet people, have good relationships and enjoy life... but at this point my entire day is spent on me trying to belch out the air.
i've spent at leasts a couple of thousand dollars in total on consultations, tests, gastroscopies, CT and mri scans, pills... but i realized that these won't give any result because doctors here are not taking issue close to heart and trying to actually make any change in my situation, rather they're just doing their job.
time has come where i am in a tough financial situation, so i was hoping at least i can do freelance design from home and make a buck to investigate my health problems further, but condition itself stops me from even doing that.
every day i've accepted that i will spend hours on these exercises that have been helping me in past, that i am going to keep doing them and will have at least an hour to do design work and maybe get some progress so that i can continue invastigating, but this day doesn't seem to come..
in past i would take famotidine and it would help me within a minute or two, i would try to belch/burp and air would come out and the tight bubble stuck feeling from chest would dissolve. now sometimes i take 6 pills of 20mg famotidine altogether and it has no effect at all... i guess my body got used to it.
if i could have even slight improvement and somehow belch/burp out the air sooner, i would dedicate remaining time to doing work and help myself get back on my feet, but now all time is spent on me struggling just to be able to eat food next day, which sometimes im not even able to do, because bubble feeling stuck in chest will increase and i will have to struggle 2x or 3x more hours.
i've worked on myself to be spiritually strong, but even now having gone through things, i am having tough time not break mentally from this every day jail.. these horrible feeling of something stuck in my esophagus and chest and unable to relieve it.. as if somebody is pushing their finger hard into my throat, my esophagus and in the middle of ribs above stomach..
hardest part is when i struggle and struggle doing exercises which helped in past and realize they are not working and i spent hours of time and energy only to stay in same condition..
when i am in such situation, i sometimes open up youtube and try to just shift focus to that, because if i try to do any work in this situation, it makes me desperate..
also there is abuse happing in my family and im in tough situation and i can not allow myself to be desperate, so i have to kind of drift my mind away and tune out of this horrible thing of an apple slice stuck in my esophagus every day, for weeks, months and years already. it has been at least 8 years with each year situation getting worse and worse..
i kept spirit with my and i am able to channel love, happiness and beautiful things in myself and share with another person, but i am afraid i will slowly break and just start getting more and more desperate from such tough routine every day which doesnt seem to end or give me chance to end it..
all i know about my condition from examinations and observations are these:
1. i am severly bloated (and has been like this for years). when i went for fibroscan of my liver last time, doc said she had to use specific equipment she uses for obese people cause it's hard to see their liver. i am skinny but she said she had to use it because of how bloated i am.. she said i am catastrophically bloated, exactly quoting.
2. i have sliding hiatal hernia and cant lean forward to pick up anything from ground (i have to crouch) because if i do, i will feel nauseous immediately.
3. even though first my problems started with intestinal bloating which gave me huge discomfort and i had to rub belly so that gas came out, then problems went higher where now i had to try to burp air out. afterwards this was followed by swallowing problem and if i didnt generate enough inertia to swallow and kind of forced it, i started having feeling like as if my throat broke in some place and would physically hurt for few hours. i had this only when drinking pills, so i would hit onto my abdomen when drinking the pill which kind of helped me to generate momentum to swallow it (i dont know how but this would help).
then same thing started happening with swallowing food or liquid, especially it is difficult to swallow liquid because it's lighter in weight. i still do the hit-onto-abdomen to generate momentum and try to swallow each gulp like that, but problem is even if i try to do it like i used to in past, my i get instantly bloated anyways. immediately i have stronger sensation of air bubble stuck in esophagus and it wont come out.
in this state i cant even swallow my own saliva, because it is light also. so i use napkins to just gather saliva and throw them away..
4. strange thing with bloating is that even now it will happen as a reflex if i sit close to something cold. my belly starts making alien noises.
when trying to belch also before burp comes out, when i kind of try to slightly force the burp, if something changes in esophagus it makes frog noises, lot of them before another burp happens. and when i burp, smell of food comes up which i might have eaten few hours ago. also if i recently drank liquid, when burping literally liquid has come up. eg. if i try to belch after drinking tea, lot of times tea has come back up instead of burping.
5. i am unable to breath through mouth. even if i take slight breath through mouth, immmediately i get intense sensation bubble stuck in my esophagus and i have to struggle really bad to belch and relieve it so i have learned to optimally breath mildly through nose (specifically right nostril) which helps avoid the sensation happen.
6. recently i started using glucometer to check sugar levels and it is usually between 102 and 134 mg/dl, which is usually a sign of pre-diabetes. i decided to use gluckometer at home, just in case to find if my condition is connected to these levels.
7. poop is clay color always for last few years, and if i eat mashed potatoes it gets so hard i am unable to poop. also since my body is leaning towards constipation, i try to always be on lookout if i feel like going, and i go just to check, to avoid any problems.
8. stress does have big impact on my condition, but unfortunately at this point im unable to avoid stressors and i was hoping maybe i can help my condition and get back on my feet, which will ultimately result in me being able to get away from stressful situation completely.
if anybody has any idea what this could be, would mean so much because at least i will investigate that direction...
thank you if you read this, you are so nice! ❤️
much love
giorgi
do you mean anti-depressants? or what could be stress removal pills for example? u can give me any example. . much love!
Flecainide sure is a dangerous drug :)
IMO I have Confirmed - stomach acid is primary cause for my Afib attacks
Afib in young people (less than 40 years old)
Weening off Sotalol
